Wisdom on the Fly

My comfort in life and death

2009-11-07T12:32:00.006-06:00

It is with deep regret that we, Gayle's children, share with you that on Nov. 4, 2009, our beloved mother went to be with her Lord. The following is an exerpt from mom's church bulletin for this Sunday:

Wife, Mother, Grandmother, Daughter, Sister, Niece, Auntie, Mentor, dear friend, Child of God, Sister in Christ, Encourager, Leader, True Woman of God! All these are just a few of the many faces of the amazing woman we knew as Gayle DeVries. We will cherish our memories of Gayle in our hearts. Many of us are stronger in our faith and walk with God because of Gayle's influence in our life. Ken DeVries asked that this beautiful and bold statement regarding believers' only comfort be placed in the bulletin as a testimony of Gayle's faith.

The Heidelberg Catechism, Lord's Day 1

Question 1: What is your only comfort in life and death?
Answer: That I am not my own, but belong - body and soul, in life and in death - to my faithful Savior Jesus Christ. He has fully paid for all my sins with his precious blood, and has set me free from the tyranny of the devil. He also watches over me in such a way that not a hair can fall from my head without the will of my Father in heaven.
In fact, all things must work together for my salvation.
Because I belong to Him, Christ, by his Holy Spirit, assures me of eternal life and makes me wholeheartedly willing and ready from now on to live for him.

Visitation services will take place Monday, Nov. 9, from 2 to 8 pm. Funeral service will be at 10:30 am Tuesday, Nov. 10. Both services will be held at Community Christian Reformed Church, 10498 N. 450 E. Roselawn, IN.

Memorials: DeMotte Christian School Tuition Assistance Fund.

Wed...Christ hospital

2009-10-28T17:39:00.001-05:00

Well, here I am. They called with a bed about noon. We arrived about 2 and didn't get into our room about four. When we walked in we walked past all the rooms where people were very sick. This is ICU cardiac/ I guess I just didn't expect such an environment for me. I got in my room and lost it. With the help of nurses and my husband I got hold of myself and surrendered once again. It was not easy.

My nurse is a young male, very competent. I had a general exam with one of the doctors on my team. Very handsome Indian/Hispanic. Young and unmarried. Gentle and very thorough. He explained every detail as he went along. Tomorrow I will have a whole gammet of tests. CAT scans etc. Most of the tests are non evasive but if you know me you know I am intimidated by even a cat scan. Imust surrender that too. What a growing experience.

Tuesday......middle of the night

2009-10-27T03:46:00.002-05:00

Last evening, I invited two elders to come to pray over me and annoint me with oil (James 5) Everytime I read that verse my conscience was pricked. I could never do that. I'd have to surrender my pride. In addition, that just isn't done much in the Reformed tradition. I finally got to the point where I felt I was disobedient not to.

We had the most wonderful evening. I feel a sense of peace that wasn't there before. Praise God. We talked about the joy we all felt and made a committment to pray for others to receive this blessing.

Monday.

2009-10-26T18:49:00.003-05:00

I spoke with the nurse at Dr. Silver's office this morning. She was MOST encouraging and said, "You'll be okay, Toots." I laughed out loud. I'm looking forward to some successful treatment. She said Dr. Silver has a soft loving and caring beside manner. Sign me up. Maybe I'm spoiled, but I need soft and encouraging. Dr. Brigham always gives me a giant bear hug before I leave. For that I'm grateful, but If what I hear is correct, he is just not as savy as this guy when it comes CHF. I feel God is directing my path.

Pray

2009-10-25T10:56:00.002-05:00

Following is the note to our children that I will now share with you.

Today has been a roller coaster emotional experience. I waited all day yesterday for a doctor's call which happenned while I was gone to eat. I had given my cell phone but he called my home phone........so I had to wait until 12:30 to get the call. It was not goodnews. He told me they had no other options with medications and he really suggested a heart transplant. That blew me away. He told me to get on it right away. I called Elton and Lauri and Dad and Mary. They all came over and we had a pow wow. Lauri said she felt all the kids felt I should try this option. Dad looked at me and said, we don't won't to lose you now and would like you to do a positive thing. It meant a lot to me that he would encourage such a thing. Dr. Brigham got a referral for a doctor at Christ hospital. We called and Dad spoke with his nurse extensively. She said this doctor is the most wwell known doctor of CHF in the world and has been exclusively treating CHF for thirty years. She told dad that there are many other options before heart transplant. I have an appointment to see him on Tuesday. Yes, John, I know you will have a million questions and I have the answer to none of them. We invite you and anyone of our other children to accompany us. Call us if you care to meet there. If you have questions, please send them through this medium. Love, Mom

Please join us in prayer and storm the gates of heaven for a treament that will bring relief.

Home Identification

2009-10-22T14:44:00.002-05:00

Two quiches would have been enough. Can we believe that? The table was beautiful with my friend's lovely fall decor. People seemed to eat plenty but they would cut one piece into four. At any rate I think we could assume we got an 8 on a one to ten scale. I was pleased and everyelse seemed so as well.

Our sunshine is gone and clouds have taken over. I hear we are supposed to get lots of rain overnight. Ugh. Where is Indian summer? I'm so ready.

I;ve decided to make a map by identifying church members homes. I talked with our administrative assistant yesterday and she said she had no idea where people lived. I know where most of the people who have been part of the church for a long time live, but I could catch up with the half of the people that are new. Ken and I started this afternoon by splitting the membership into three general town areas. We will see how far we get with that.

We just may have a new adminitrative pastor coming and that would be helpful for him as well. I need to find ways I can be of benefit at this point.

TGIF for most of you.

Treats

2009-10-20T14:50:00.002-05:00

A friend and I have to bring "treets" for WWIW tomorrow morning. The friend didn't get home until this afternoon. Seeing as I'm not very strong today, I opted to make a trip to Costco. I bought six quiches, three sweet breads and a dozen huge muffins sthat I will cut in half to serve. I called my friend and she was in Indy on her way home. She will pick up some fruit juices and bring a fall centerpiece for the table. I think we are ready.

Monday

2009-10-19T13:06:00.002-05:00

Ken just got home from golfing and had a very good day. That is always to the advantage of a happy husband.

Today looks beautiful, sun shining brightly but still quite windy. I haven't braved the elements though I did open the door and take some deep sniffs of fresh air.

Last week Wed Thurs and Friday, I went into the hospital for what they call a CHF tune up, They took off about ten pounds. I really feel I should have had more off but we wanted to attend our step grandaughter's college graduation party on Saturday. We had a wonderful time seeing people again. Josh's daughter Lauren, whom we haven't seen in a looooong time was present. She is eighteen now and gorgeous. Some how I think that we will be seeing more of her and that would be so welcomed. She is darling and so easy to love. Grandpa Recker gave her his welcome back series of hugs and kisses........not just once but several times. He has such a heart of sthe grands that walk away for awhile. I know that his love for Scarlen and his demonstration of that love has kept her in the fold. I have two babies, she and Kendra. She is a few months older that Kendra and will be celebrating her thirtieth birthday this week.

The Lord is incontrol. His grace will see me there.

Women have always had a tough time throughout history

2009-10-08T15:26:00.002-05:00

I can't believe it has been a week since I wrote last. Last weekend Kendra and Craig along with their little princess came home for a couple of days. The latest zinger our 20 month old said was in response to her mother's request to leave for school. Emerson lingered a bit and Kendra said, C'om Emerson, it is time to go. The response from Emerson was "Just a moment, please, I'm looking for something." What a crazy little kid.

Nothing really outstanding has happened in our area recently. We had our Beth Moore study yesterday. We are studying Esther. It's amazing what those dear young virgins went through. Esther is a short book in the old testament. Take a moment to read the story.

WITW Day

2009-09-30T15:21:00.006-05:00

The day started pretty cold, brrrrrr. I hate cold. Yesterday I went to Kohls and got some ear covers. I must say they work pretty well. I envy anyone whose temperature guage is more tolerant than mine. I have a short comfort zone. I think a lot of that has to do with meds I take but I certainly hate being a priss.

We had Women in the Word today. We are studying Esther. Last week, I just couldn't get into it. When I tried to read, I either fell asleep or got a headache. Today inspired me some. I've already done the first day and enjoyed it. On my way home, I stopped at a garage sale just down the street. It was neat as a pin but there weren't many things there. I found a Jewish Bible, paperback, light and small. Just what I needed. I don't think I ever saw a Jewish Bible before. Esther is close to the end of the book. I enjoyed reading it. Made me feel closer to the original.

God has been instilling me with the truth that he not only will show me favor but he says, he has shown me favor......it is a done deal. His blessing is always over my head. His goodness and mercy are following close by me each and every moment. Thank you God for your good and sure care.

Week in Review

2009-09-26T12:34:00.007-05:00

What happened since Tuesday? It is a blur. Yesterday, I went to church for awhile to help get ready for the huge rummage sale we had today. It was fun getting together with the other volunteers. I decided I'd go home and do some baking for the bake sale booth. I made a pumpkin crunch dessert and mint filled brownies. During the night I woke and had an overwhelming desire to make homemade cinnamon rolls. So I put the dough ingredients together and dumped them in the bread machine. Then back to bed until time for the next step. I slept in too late and I had to hustle to get the rolls baked and frosted. Fortunately, Ken called and asked if I needed help..........I said YES. He hurried home from town and we got my act together rather quickly.

Ken was just sitting here making egg salad. Kico was sitting on my shoulder and decided to jump onto the table to get a better look. The crazy bird has never accepted any vegetable or fruit I have offered him. Ken gave him a small piece of egg and he wolfed it down. How funny, feeding a bird an egg. We had a good laugh.

I have concerns with some of the things going on in Washington this weekend. While I want no record of my opinions, I do wish to have you look into what I may be talking about. It is disconcerning. Ken and I sat with my dad and his wife Mary and prayed together for our nation on Friday night. It was a rich moment. Not everyone my age gets to pray with a clear headed, sharp eighty nine year old father. Oh God, thank you for such a blessing and the richness of that evening as we sat around on the sunporch discussing the goings on and yielding to the knowledge that only God can help us as a nation.

Kico and Third Graders

2009-09-22T14:48:00.002-05:00

Today we went to the hospital lab for yet another blood test. Hopefully, it will produce good results. We ate breakfast at the cafeteria. I don't know where my hunger came from but I ate a scoop and a half of scrambled eggs, a piece of raisin toast, a small amount of cream of wheat and a bowl of grapefruit! I ate the WHOLE thing. Often times, most often, my eyes are bigger than my stomach and all though I was terribly full, I enjoyed it all.

After a trip to Starbucks, we headed home. At one o'clock, we brought Kico to Ethan's class at De Motte Christian. They are studying birds this week so yesterday Ethan called me, "Hey, Grandma.................would you, could you." Sure little buddy. The kids were SOOOO well behaved...even our little Ethan. He seemed proud as a peacock as his friends listened to me. I carried Kico on my shoulder and walked up and down the aisles. We talked about what a wondrous creator our God is. Looking Kico over, we decided God put the finishing touches on by brushing orange circles on his cheeks. Amazing.

My car is in the car hospital. Ugh. I hate being wheel less. It was supposed to be fixed by today but of course it needed another part so now it is to be tomorrow. I can't wait to get the big baby back.

Seafood Salad

2009-09-17T15:11:00.002-05:00

I stuck around home most of the morning doing normal morning routine things. Around 12:30, I took off for town to get a few food items and stop at any garage sales I saw on the way. It was a pretty good find today. The weather is wonderful so being out and about was enjoyable. At the grocery I got some crab flakes and crab chunks. Took them home and made some seafood salad which we both love. I also made a grape salad. Yum. I bought Ken a half rack of ribs for a special treat (already cooked and barbecued). Stinks to me but he loves it.

On the street I met my hair stylist riding her bike carrying her little grand baby on the back wheel. She said she didnt start til four today. We talked about my hair, which I can't get used to and made a plan. I asked when. We both knew she wouldnt know without her appt book but then she said she had just been to the salon and they had an opening at 4:15. I snatched that up.

Somethings just work out right.

God bless your day with peace knowing he is control of all things, including you and me.

Spaghetti

2009-09-15T16:33:00.004-05:00

I made a big pot of spaghetti this afternoon. When I talked with Bernice she and I conferred that both of us hate to cook. When Ken asks what is for dinner, I just hang my head. He is such a good sport about. Bernice's husband last evening asked if she wanted to go out for something. No, she didn't. He told her to write on a piece of paper what she wanted to do. He said he wrote on a paper what he wanted. She told him she didnt have to write, she just knew she wanted to stay home and grab what may be around. She opened Bud's paper and it said, " Cold Cereal!"

They stayed home and both were happy.

Anyway, when I saw how much spaghetti grew in my pan, I called her and asked if when we go to get Isaiah tonight, would she like us to bring our spaghetti and eat together. So soon, we will pick up our pan and go to their house.

Monday Musings

2009-09-14T16:54:00.003-05:00

This morning I took Kico back to the petstore and said, "You have to do something about his daggers". The lady that sold him to me was working and she apologetically said, "I should have taken care of his nails before you left the store". So this time, trimming his nails was on the house. I was tired of having to wear protective gear unless I wanted him to draw blood all the way up my arm. He is much easier to handle now.

I got a response from Ken's cousin who reads the blog. She said when her sister passed away, she was heir to her sister's cockatiel. She looked up against it because of all she had heard about them being dirty, etc. She said they have fallen in love with Daffy and get so much pleasure from her. Daffy is seventeen years old.

Alex brought the other three of the grands over for their Kico time. I made the mistake of having candy in three different dishes. The four of them grazed from one to the next. I finally had to put on the brakes. It's amazing how they try to get one more out of ya. I asked if they didn't get candy at home. No, Mom said when she puts it in a bowl it disappears. Hmmmmm.

I haven't been able to put pictures on here because my battery charger disappeared. I have to get another one. Do I have to call Sony for that or can I buy one at any store?

Have a joyful day. Shout for joy to the Lord all the earth....serve the Lord with gladness.

The Weekend

2009-09-10T15:12:00.004-05:00

Okay, so having a new baby bird takes time. He is so friendly, in fact, he doesn;t like it when I walk away. He wants to be on my shoulder all the time. He is learning to spend time in his cage without throwing a fit. He kisses me upon request. His nails are long and draw blood on my arm when he climbs up with vigor. I'm going to the petstore and ask them to cut those nails and square them off.

Yesterday morning Ken and I helped with our church's food pantry. It was such a beautiful day. I'm sure that added to the pleasure. We served 98 families with food. They got a very nice portion of food plus a couple of pieces of meat and a watermelon and muskmelon. The people looked very happy. I heard no complaints. It was fun to love them and show interest in their lives.

We spent the afternoon relaxing and taking life rather easy. Today we went to church and then taxied Isaiah home, and back to Roselawn so he could catch a ride to his travel team game. The small amount of time we spent with him was fun. We don't see him enough, but we know he loves school and all his activities. He is doing well and that makes us happy. I don't think some people in our lives understand the investment we have in that boy and our desire to see him grow to be a rock of leadership in the church and and exemplary citizen. Go God. We are so grateful that our children are good parents to all our grandchildren.

His Name is "Kico"

2009-09-08T14:41:00.010-05:00

Dear Mama,

It's been thirty five or more years but today I had a remembrance we shared. I could have laughed and then I could have cried. Dumb head. That's what I proved to you that day. My emotions got ahead of my reality and I did something that was hilarious and so sad. I
had three small children and you always liked to get me out of the stress for awhile. (If you knew how my future went you would faint....we went from four to eight, Mom. I love them all and you would too) Ken stayed home with the kids and you and I took off to Hammond. It was such a shopping heaven in those days. Some things do change. It would break your heart, Mom.

You loved canaries........it rubbed off on me. I still love to hear a canary sing. They aren't much in vogue right now. You were out to buy one for yourself and instead you came out with two little boxes, one for me, too. I'll never forget that gesture of love. The only DQ around was in Dyer (We sometimes made special trips just so Dad could get his gedunk, remember) Well, it was on our way home so the plan was made to have our treat there. It was a lovely day. I recall sitting with the windows down, enjoying the mild weather. I had my little box on my lap and decided to take a peek. Well, the canary must have been planning it's escape. It lifted itself up and flew out the window. My stomach was tied in knots. Were you going to be mad at me. No, you laughed really hard and said we should get out of the car and see if she had found a branch somewhere. She was out of sight, but not out of mind.

When we got home, you did the ultimate. You gave your little box to me. Oh Mom, it makes me cry real tears right now. That story is probably one of the most precious I have of you and me. Being the oldest kid I sometimes felt left out while you took care of the younger three. That day you proved your love to me.

So let me tell you something, Mom. Today I got a baby cockatiel. I don't know what you know about them but they make wonderful pets. He is already sitting in my hand and on my shoulder. It would take five canaries to make up his size. God put this one at just the right place at the right time. He is every thing I wanted in a cockatiel. He is what they call a pearl. and he is a male which I was seeking. He has just been weaned so should learn to know us well. Very colorful. I understand their lifespan is 20-25 years. Ken said we probably have to put him in the will.

To my favorite bird lover, I say thank you for putting that love in me. You have been gone nearly forty years, but I still miss you and often wish I could share with you. That is why this note is to you. Love you, Mama

Labor Day

2009-09-07T11:48:00.004-05:00

The holiday started dark and drippy. Now it is noon and the sun is shining brightly and the mood is happy. Ken is out golfing and should be home soon. Today is Scarlen's opportunity to shine. She has invited thirteen of us for a picnic at four o'clock. I'm very proud of her. It is her first year of living independently and she is stepping out with confidence. There are thirteen of us who are blessed to have invitation. I hope all goes well. I'll post the results later.

Yesterday my step sister and her husband from Colorado came for their first visit in close to twenty years. We were honored and enjoyed the reunion to the fullest.

Usual Wednesday

2009-09-03T10:42:00.002-05:00

Where was I yesterday? I was surprised that I didn't blog yesterday. Some days just go by. This morning I woke up comparatively early and was out the door by 8:30. Several new garage sales today. It was such a beautiful morning. I didn't buy much but enjoyed the early fall air. Everyone seemed happy and renewed with this gorgeous weather. Garage sales have regulars so it is like seeing old friends when one meets up there.

After I finished, by 10:00 a.m. I dropped by Lauri's seeking some one on one time. She met me at the door with, "Mackenna is still sick and running a fever." I turned on my heels and said my good byes. It seems those kids are sick often but then there are four of them to pass things around.

I took a break from this and walked around the yard picking unusual things for the vase for my kitchen table. God's amazing creation is overwhelming. After the blossoms are mostly gone, I look for plants with awesome foliage. The sedems are so contributing. So many kinds. Then there are the painter's pallete and other interesting patterns and textures. I placed them in a crystal vase and they are beautiful. Don't under estimate the beauty of folliage.

As I watch the hummers suck their sugar water while hovering, their body part looks like a mouse. I know that isn't so pleasant to think about, but it did remind me of what a resourceful creator we have. He can take one pattern and change it just a bit and walla........a beautiful bird.
God, you are so great and I am so struck by your creative powers. I can't imagine all that ingenuity.

Tests and Doctor's Visits

2009-09-01T15:46:00.004-05:00

I'm tired. Left at 10:45 for a visit with my defibrillator nurse. She is very nice but it makes my skin crawl everytime I walk in the doctor's office. Her report was good, at least as good as it can be.
Then from there to the echo cardiogram room. I always borrow my friend's CD player so I can turn up the praise music and zone out. Yes, I have anxiety problems. I lived through both of the tests. Soon I have a CAT scan of my lungs to follow up on that lung that collapsed. Ugh. Now it is always something I have to do or someone I have to go to see. In the middle of it all today, I looked at Ken and said, " I didn't bargain for any of this". He assured me no one bargains for their trials.

Each time I go through these days, it takes me while to calm down and get ahold of myself once again. What do I need. Just to commune with my heavenly Father who has each of my days counted and will let nothing come to me without his compassionate will. Praise Him.

Almost Ready to Come Home :)

2009-08-30T18:07:00.005-05:00

Thank you to all who called on the power of God on Pam's behalf. Following is Pam's own journal enry.

Journal
Sunday, August 30, 2009 1:02 PM, CDT

Hi Everybody,This site amazes me. Thanks to all of you who have checked in on my progress and have lifted me up to the Lord in prayer this week. I have needed that. And the results were AMAZING. The Lord is Good, just as he says. I am feeling very woozy today. The nurses think it is due to being relatively inactive for so many days. I hope that is all it is. I have been "encouraged" (pushed) to walk and have done it. Not with the greatest of ease, but I'm getting the job done.The preliminary results of last night's CT scan were that no other tumors or cysts exist in my middle parts. I think that was to check abdominals, spleen, kidneys, ovaries, etc., etc. We will wait and see what today holds, but the doctor is not ruling out a departure for tomorrow. Is that not unbelievable!?! I am thankful to have had this strange circumstance at this time and place and not 10 years ago. The technicology and knowlege they have is so astounding. I hope all of you and yours are enjoying a blessed Sabbath day, rejoicing at the feet of Jesus.

My brother Jim, Pam's dad, called today and said he and Sue had gotten to spend the morning with Pam. Pam's husband went home to take the little girls to church. It was the first time Jim and Sue had time alone with Pam. I know Phil is her wife but first of all Pam is Jim and Sue's little girl. They had a wonderful time together. Jim said Pam was all dressed and looking like she was ready to go. I told him I think her secret thought was, "Daddy, take me home". Once a kid always a kid and once a parent always a parent. God is truly a God of families and a faithful God of the generations.

PTL

2009-08-28T16:24:00.003-05:00

Praises to God. Pam's surgery was finished before noon and was declared by the surgeon as a complete sucess. She was awake and alert in the ICU unit. A couple hours later, Phil and the parents and some of Pam's siblings were given permission to visit her. Phil said she looked good, put up her thumbs and said, "I like these drugs, keep them coming". Praise God for his care even in medications.

We are so grateful. Thanks for joining us in prayer.

Update

2009-08-28T09:59:00.003-05:00

I can't say it as well as my nephew......

Friday, August 28, 2009 8:18 AM, CDT

Hello Everyone,Just wanted to update everyone. They came and took Pam into the surgery room around 6:00 today to start with the prep work for surgery. We were surrounded by family, after some tears and devotions we left. Pam is in a wonderful disposition with many smiles. It is just amazing knowing where the heart is and where it longs to be, but were not going there! Reality is surreal signing a living will makes you realize what you have and how much you love those that you have. She is in the Hands of the Great Physician and also a good surgeon named Dr Boskoya. The nursing staff has been wonderful I have never been in a hospital that lifts your spirits and greats you with a smile and a positive attitude. The surgery is scheduled to start around 9:00 this morning and we will be getting up dates about every 2 hours. Keep us in your prayers.Pslam 27:13"I had fainted, unless I had believed to see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living."

I'm so impressed with their faith. Pray.

Merrillville and More

2009-08-27T18:29:00.005-05:00

Quite the day! By nine thirty, I picked up two of my friends, both grandmothers of a grandchild's upcoming wedding. They both needed something to wear. So to the mall we went. Both are quite satisfied with what they came home with and now they are ready for the next couple of weeks as their dates are only a week apart. Both ladies came away with deals of the century. What would we do without Carson's for dressy clothes.

Our niece Pam has surgery in the morning early....7:30. God bless each family member, guide the medical team. PLEASE remember Pam in your prayers tonight for a peaceful good sleep and then for a productive outcome tomorrow.

I got very good news on my blood test. My labs looked good and I was directed to continue the medicinal plan I am on. That was awesome news for us. Now my prayer is that God will negate any negative side effects those medications challenge. God is good and is building my trust in Him.

Pray for Our Pam (Niece)

2009-08-26T13:58:00.003-05:00

The day is strange. Cloud cover part of the time, then suddenly bright and sunny skies. I prefer the later but I understand rain is forecast for the day sometime.

Is there anyone else out there that has a terrible time keeping the kitchen table free of papers and meer junk? I suppose others use a cabinet top or some other place. I no more than get the thing cleared off and Ken comes in with the mail. You know where that goes. A little pile of this and a little pile of that. So frustrating to me. He accuses me of throwing away the paper before the ink is dry. Ugh. I hate newpaper lying around. So I wait until morning and find sheer joy in dumping the thing in the garbage. No, Julia, I don't recycle. I know, a black mark behind my name. Then by mid morning the new paper comes and finds its place on the table....and so it goes. I'm looking at my table....there are things I need to put away.

My niece was diagnosed with a brain tumor this week. She is 37 or 38 and has a husband and three beautiful little girls. The latest is that the medical team believes the tumor is benign. The surgeon says he can get to it fairly easily. So Friday morning at seven thirty, remember our Pam in your prayers. They will do the surgery then. As my dad said when he called me, "If it isn't two things, it is three." God is faithful. I am so encouraged by the way our family has come to Pam's side in thought and prayer. I smile when I see the closeness of cousins. My dad has always been one to keep us together and I would say his children have followed his lead. We try to all get together once a year. The last two years we went to my brother's house for a fall kind of gathering. He built fires, his wife made pulled chicken, and we had a lovely hay ride after dark when the moon and stars were vivid. Jer pulls us out into fields unknown. He is the best baby brother anyone could have. Love that boy.

Sun and Skin

2009-08-21T14:45:00.004-05:00

I took the opportunity to go to Lauri's around noon, hoping we could put a lunch together. I brought some garlic hummus (Lauri's favorite food). We took a few tortilla shells and sprayed them with a bit of oil then put them in the oven. They got toasty brown and crisp. We broke it into pieces and scooped the hummus with them. It was very good. Son in law, Elton, had made some salsa so we had some of that too. Yummy stuff. I finished my meal off with a white flesh peach, I love what flesh peaches.

The rest of the day I just plunked around at things here in the house. If I could have done what I wanted to do, I would have driven to Kendra for her last free day of summer. She starts school on Monday. One would be crazy as a loon to try to drive back and forth to Algonquin on a Friday. Soooooooo, maybe next year.

Yesterday I visited a dermotologist. I had to look one up on line since I didn't know of anyone in general area at this point. My one request was that it had to be a female. My experience with male dermotologist is negative. Horrible bedside manner. I found a PA within a group in Merrillville who just happened to have a cancellation yesterday afternoon. I have been treatinga spot on my nose with a cream given by my primary physician for over a year. A month ago it looked so good, I stopped the cream. It erupted. Scared me. Dr. Heather looked at it for two seconds and said, these are precancerous and are caused by exposure to the sun before age twenty. Well, of course, we didn't have sunscreen then. She took a long swap on a stick and froze it with instructions to follow up in six months with the comfort that these things do come back, :)

Rain and the Lack Thereof

2009-08-20T11:12:00.007-05:00

As we drove to our daughter's birthday's imprompto birthday celebration last evening, the heaven's open for a short time and it rained really hard. I clapped my hands and said, "Yea God, thank you so much". Ken echoed, "Amen." The crops are hurting badly. There are places where the plants are so dried up, they are stunted, brown and hanging with yellow leaves. The corn leaves looks like ithey have turned in on themselves. It is very sad to watch. My brother walked a corn field owned by my dad and said he didn't see an ear of corn. Makes me sick. Like my oldest daughter said upon hearing this news, "it is always weird to me that someone would really WANT to be a farmer." There is 90% farmer in my dad and brother.

We had a mildly stormy nght and had a 1/2 inch of rain. Makes for happier farmers.

Yesterday morning I did the whole laundry. That may not sound like much but for us, it was a big milestone. Then we went to Merrillville to do big grocery shopping. It was a huge day for me and I was exhausted. That may suggest why I still sleeping at noon today.

A New Beginning

2009-08-17T16:18:00.003-05:00

This morning I was at De Motte Christian School for opening chapel at eight thirty. DMC is where my brothers and sister and I got our elementary education. I love what it did for my kids and now what it is doing for my grandchildren, all five that attend there. I know the kids love to see there grandma sitting in the chairs below their bleachers. Ethan was all smiles. My eighth graders seemed to enjoy being king and queen of the hill this year. Someone was sitting in front of my sixth grader . All I could see was her beautiful blonde straight and shiny hairWhen I walked to the car I laughed at myself. I left my purse with wallet and phone in it on the front seat in plain sight and hadn't locked the door. I guess

After the chapel I visited my friend, Joyce, who said she had to get to Kohl's before her 30% coupon expired. My friend does not do things unplanned. I do little that I plan ahead for. So we talked it over and she decided she would take my offer and let me take her. She needed clothes for a wedding. We spent adequate time at Kohl's and both found bargains.

Then we went to Taco Bell for a double decker supreme. Yum. Then on to Starbucks for a smoothie. Yum again. We left for home and found I-65 backed up everywhere. It cured me from taking it again. I most often take the back roads but somehow thought it would be okay to a certain exit. Not so. An unepected accident. What we found was that ALL south bound traffic was being routed off at our exit. UGH. We took more back roads all the way to town and then through town as well.

The wisdom I learned today was to use my patience and not listen to my tendency to want to make it fast.

Saturday and Sunday

2009-08-16T18:46:00.011-05:00

God gave me strength to travel three hours to and from Milwaukee for my niece's wedding. We were all a bit hesitant about the wisdom in having a wedding at this point. I am so glad we went. My niece looked "beautiful"and her husband worked very hard to carry out the meal. It was all very good and nicely done. The occasion was in a lovely park. Though the temps were hot, we were under trees and a nice pavilion and the breeze kept us comfortable.

The minister and his wife got lost (we did too) they arrived right on time. Delightful people. I plan to continue the discussions we began yesterday. Only with God centered people can we meet and share for fifteen minutes and love occur between you. I loved them both. I'd love to attend their church some time. I know that an African American church would be a shock to my spiritual upbringing, God has brought me full circle from the type of racism I felt during the time I was raised. As a teenager,I worked at the Gary fruit and veggie market. We left at four in the morning and had so many races that came for our wares. I remember not being able to recall what color or what nationality the person was whom I just waited on. Thank God for truth and a growth in love and acceptability. I love you Donald and Thiersa. Thanks for sharing the person of Christ with us.

Today we were privileged to enjoy a return of a former minister of Community along with his dear wife. What a joy. I enjoyed the hugs that are familiar with them. I enjoyed Don on the pulpit again. Didn't use a note and preached the word from his relationship with 'God. Sometimes there isn't enough time in life to manage our dearest relationships. Don and Donna are special people.

Later, we called our daughter, Scarlen, her girl friend, Lynette, and our grandson Isaiah. "Do you guys want to meet us at DQ?" "IS Dad going to pay? Yes Baby, Dad will pay. We had such a nice time. The kids only wanted cones so the price was indeed cheap for an hour with those we love. We shared many chuckles. It was last Sunday that Isaiah collapsed in the parking lot. We enjoyed talking about those that helped us. Oh yea, we still had a laugh as we recalled that Scarlen turned to someone as she held her baby's head in her lap and yelled, "Get my Mommy." I told Lynette she has called me much worse things in her growing up years, which seemed as if they lasted forever. I love to hear her call me "mommy". We also praised God for seeing that Isaiah was well and just passed out. We also praise God for a daughter that has come full circle. Adoption is not for sissies but it is a wonderful faith builder to see God perform a miracle. Even when it takes twenty years.

Enough for today. Blessings for a great week.

His Eye is on You and Me, too

2009-08-14T15:52:00.011-05:00

When I was a child at home, my father used a gun more often than in later years. If he got tired of cleaning sparrow poop up, he would sit and pop off a few from the chair he sat in. Farmers did those things then. As a result I grew up with little if any appreciation for sparrows. With the Biblical references about sparrows, I have changed my mind over the years. Matthews10:29-31

Do not be afraid of those who kill the body but cannot kill the soul. Rather, be afraid of the One who can destroy both soul and body in hell. 29Are not two sparrows sold for a penny[a]? Yet not one of them will fall to the ground apart from the will of your Father. 30And even the very hairs of your head are all numbered. 31So don't be afraid; you are worth more than many sparrows.

God knows sparrows aren't of much value in the world's market. They are so plentiful. But they are created by Him so therefore God's will still controls the life and safety of a sparrow. Thank God He says that we are worth more than MANY sparrows.

I turned on Joni Lamb this afternoon and Ms Lilly sang "His eye is on the sparrow"

Why should I feel discouraged, why should the shadows come,Why should my heart be lonely, and long for heav’n and home,When Jesus is my portion? My constant Friend is He:His eye is on the sparrow, and I know He watches me;His eye is on the sparrow, and I know He watches me.

Refrain:I sing because I’m happy, I sing because I’m free,For His eye is on the sparrow, and I know He watches me.

“Let not your heart be troubled,” His tender word I hear,And resting on His goodness, I lose my doubts and fears;Though by the path He leadeth, but one step I may see;His eye is on the sparrow, and I know He watches me;His eye is on the sparrow, and I know He watches me.
Whenever I am tempted, whenever clouds arise,When songs give place to sighing, when hope within me dies,I draw the closer to Him, from care He sets me free;His eye is on the sparrow, and I know He watches me;His eye is on the sparrow, and I know He watches me.

Why should I feel discouragedAnd why should the shadows come And why should my heart feel so lonelyAnd long for heaven and homeWhen Jesus is my portion My constant friend is He, His eyes in on the sparrowAnd I know he watches meI sing because I'm happy I sing because I'm freeHis eye in on the sparrowAnd I know he watchesAnd I know he watches I know he watches meI sing because I'm happy I sing bcaause I'm freeHis eye in on the sparrowAnd I know he watches And I know he watches I know he watches me I know he watches me

Project Stress

2009-08-13T16:49:00.007-05:00

Well, today was installation day. Yep, the new light over our dining table is in place and looks great. I'm very impressed and now all the more eager to get the matching entry light. All did not go particularly smoothly. I shared my desire to have the light hang over the MIDDLe of the table. Seemed reasonable to me. My husband didn't take so kindly to it. It was a bigger mountain in his head than it actually turned out to be. When I was young, I would have fought for my way. No more. I simply said, If you are satisfied with the light where it is, go ahead and put it up the same way. I truly gave it up. I had no idea how the thing would turn out. When it was far enough along to see what he was doing, I realized he had finally understood my point, and realiszed it simply needed another hook in the ceiling. I think he is more pleased as well.

Then there were two toliet seats that needed to be replaced. I had expressed I wanted a soft seat. He thought it was ridiculous. He doesn't know how it feels to sit on a hard seat with a bony butt. Since the payment came out of my account, he didn't fight it. Yea, seperate accounts. There are reasons. Even if no one else understands, we both understand and prefer it that way.

Projects usually give cause for pause at our house. Let me go on record as saying, I love the man with my whole heart and truly do understand him more and more. He is God's blessed gift to me.

Hummers are My Friends

2009-08-12T15:45:00.003-05:00

It is a beautiful day! The sun is a flower in itself today. To add to the day's joy, the hummers have found the new feeder that atttaches to the window in my sun room. One just flew away as I wrote these words. They are a miracle.

Our eldest grandaughter's fiance' s been in the reserves for six months and is coming home tomorrow. Whitney is delighted to say the least. Her twelve year old brother started school today. Isn't it too early for school to start? Lots of activity going on at the Bakker household.

My husband golfed this morning. Then he went to church. I called him two hours ago and he said he was helping some guys put up track lighting. I called him again and he claims it will be awhile. Ughhhhh. I'm ready to have him here awhile today.

I guess Cash Cab will be my companion the rest of the afternoon.

Not much wisdom today.....

Slow Down, Baby

2009-08-11T13:58:00.003-05:00

Another blood test at the hospital this morning. As long as we were closer to Menard's, we decided to look at a light fixture they advertised. We liked what we saw and now have a big box in our dining area waiting for the installer; Ken. He has a lot going on today to because I sense his preoccupation, I'm happy to be patient. There was an entry way light to match it and we will need it but I have to wait until my current spending ceases a bit. Funny how that happens when one hasn't been able to get around for awhile and now, I see things and realizes their utility usefulness for us.

I bought four pair of shoes at Penney's yesterday........70 percent off is still a hand full of money when one buys four. I have looked and looked for months for the type of shoes I found so felt I might as well fill my color needs for the future. Just call me Imelda Marcos. ::)))))

Soooooo, all of this says to slow down Baby. I will. I've had lots of practice doing that over the years. There has never been a bottom less crock of money at our house. God has always been faithful, however.

Isaiah seems to be fine. He went to soccer practice last night and seemed unphazed. Praise to God

Isaiah's Memorable Sunday

2009-08-09T15:30:00.004-05:00

Our Florida son, Jay, took his son, Austin, 13, to Chicago for a Bears event this weekend. Our Chicago daughter, Jennifer, invited several family members for Saturday evening and seven of us could make it. Our daughter's better half is a fantastic cook to we enjoyed an awesome meal. Best of all was enjoying each other. It was the first time Scarlen and Isaiah had experienced downtown Chicago condo life. It's interesting to bring country bumpkins to the city where one has to ring a bell or make a phone call to just be allowed into the building. I chuckled at their reaction. We all enjoyed their wonderful terrace filled with beautiful pots of flowers. Jennifer made a great hostess and I was very proud of her. Each of our children is so different in character..........the love in a parent's heart for each if them is the same. I am so proud of all eight of our children. God has been oh so gracious.

When we returned home last night Scarlen said she and Isaiah would attend second service this morning. Generally first service attendees, we said we would see them on their way in and our way out. Ken and I woke up at eight this morning which would give us 45 minutes for showers and breakfast. We decided to go to second service. When we got to church the kids were coming out from the first service and when they saw us began to laugh. While we stood talking with some people, a nineteen year old boy that had an aneurism a few weeks ago came out the door, a parent on both sides. It wasn't a pretty sight. Scarlen asked what happened and I told her. It wasn't a pretty story either. Unbeknown to me and to his mother Isaiah didn't know Josh's condition. Isaiah turned around and said to his mom, let's get home, I can't see. One never knows when he is teasing or serious. No sooner were we in the hall at church and a man came and got us and an EMT lady we were talking with. He told us that Isaiah had collapsed in the parking lot. Scarlen was sitting on the ground holding his head in her lap crying her eyes out. The EMT lady asked Isaiah questions and that is when his story came out. Jan called for the EMTs and soon, very soon, the ambulance was there and they took Isaiah inside and sized up the situation. Isaiah was very pale and rather scared and lathargic. We decided to take him in just to make sure he was okay. I rode in the front seat with the driver and Scarlen sat in the back with Isaiah. They did the usual tests, gave him a liter of fluid, fed him a cheeseburger fries. The doctor said Isaiah has venovelga syndrome which simply means when he hears something grusome he passes out. Hmmmmm.......I know there is no blood relationship here but I think he got that from me.:)))))))) The good news is that he began to perk up and was soon his old self again. I'm not sure his mom has recovered yet. I called the man that got us out of church to thank him for his help. He Scarlen had looked at him and said with vigor, "Get my mom". Like I said yesterday or the day before, that relationship has healed and continues to bloom. I praise God and love her to pieces. When we got home, I told Ken I needed to sit and recover. Mom couldn't show emotion, only support so I needed a bit of peace and restoration.

What a Magnificient Creator

2009-08-07T15:19:00.005-05:00

This Is My Father's World

1. This is my Father's world,
and to my listening ears
all nature sings, and round me rings
the music of the spheres.
This is my Father's world:
I rest me in the thought
of rocks and trees, of skies and seas;
his hand the wonders wrought.

2. This is my Father's world,
the birds their carols raise,
the morning light, the lily white,
declare their maker's praise.
This is my Father's world:
he shines in all that's fair;
in the rustling grass I hear him pass;
he speaks to me everywhere.

3. This is my Father's world.
O let me ne'er forget
that though the wrong seems oft so strong,
God is the ruler yet.
This is my Father's world:
why should my heart be sad?
The Lord is King; let the heavens ring!
God reigns; let the earth be glad!

I told Ken last evening to be really quiet upon getting up this morning since I planned to "sleep in". No big plans for today so I thought I'd make up for yesterday and get a good start for tommorow. At 9:21, the door bell rang, Ken had locked the door so I had to open my eyes and get out of my chair. It was Bernice, "Come on, get dressed, we are going out to Lake Village to see someone I know." To say I was perplexed is an understatement. I walked around in a daze. Finally, I took a Navy shower (one minute),got dressed, ate a half a bagel and out the door we went.

On our drive, we saw so many "naked ladies" blooming. As we discussed the miracle of that particular plant, couldn't help but note the amazing creation of our God. A bulb is planted and in the spring, green shoots similar to daffodils come up and look healthy and like they are ready for a long summer. Soon the green shoots die and disappear. In August, in the same spot as the shoots grew, long stalks grow tall and robust and produce a gorgeous pink flower. Look around, you are sure to see them in yards if you are not familiar with them. A miracle that happens year after year.

On our way home, we stopped at some relatively new friends of ours; John and Jan. They are late sixty newly weds of a year or so and both are delightful. Since it was some after 11 o'clock, Jan insisted we eat lunch with them. We had a great lunch and just prior to our sitting down, she asked if she could put on a CD of hymns played by piano and trumpet. It was wonderful.........soon the hymn This Is My Father's World was playing. When I heard the phrase, "he speaks to me everywhere", my spirit bowed in submission and praise. That is where the "naked ladies" came into the picture of my spirit eyes. Join me in praise today.

God is Gracious

2009-08-06T16:53:00.007-05:00

I got up early today.......did some actual work around here and then left to pay the lady for her radio/CD player. My husband seems to think he can make it work, we have such a hard time getting AM/FM here. I think it has some thing to do with the power lines across the street. Ken has the machine installed and I haven't been home enough today to check it out.

I drove to Bernice's house to see the shoes she got after I called her to give her the tip that there were beautiful black dressy shoes at a location. She got about five pair of winners. Wish they had been 9s instead of 7 1/2s.

After we visited a few more sales, Scarlen and Lynette called that they wanted to join us. Bernice had to go home so I went to get the girls. We spent the rest of the day shopping from one sale to the next. I am so whipped. Time to REST. The biggest purchase of the day was the last one. Isaiah has shown interest in an accoustical guitar (thank heavens). He is beginning to see electric guitar with less awe. His grandma could not be happier. To say I encouraged the purchase would charge me with deserved guilt. We went home to get the boy so he could make the decision. He now has an accoustical guitar, which according to this grandma is softer and mellower than the screamers. I think he is seeing that as well. I love to watch him develop. The other day he told me he was getting into Mozart. SMILE>>>>>>>>
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A good day to bond with my daughter and friend. We had a nice time. I praise God for those
good relationships. It hasn't always been that way. God is my restorer......yours too!

Hump Day.....what an awful name

2009-08-05T18:09:00.005-05:00

The sun was very bright today yet I don't think the temps were all that high. I am so sensitive to sunshine. I talked with my hair stylist today when I got my hair cut and she suggested I may be taking some meds that make me that way. When the sun enters the side window of my passenger seat, I am uncomfortable. I remember feeling that last winter on the trip to Phoenix also. I decided to call Lynette who used to live with us and now works at Auto Zone. She is bringing me some shades to see if that will help matters. She is such a joy. When she answered her phone she said with confidence, "Hello Mother!". It just made me laugh outloud. I don't see her often anymore since she is working two jobs but she still brings a smile to my face.

I also visited the Wed garage sales. I didn't find much but had fun looking. I found an under the counter radio and CD player. Where else but De Motte can you say to the lady....is it okay if I take this home and see if it works at my house? If it works I'll be here in the morning to pay you and if it doesn't I'll bring it back. Gotta love a small town. Would it not be a gift of God if our whole nation of people could trust each other? I guess that will be heaven.

At Least I Can Watch a Little News Now

2009-08-04T15:16:00.003-05:00

Watching Fox news. I can't stand it right now......health care reform, a different form than the one proposed......yada yada yada. Let me go on record that I am totally opposed to the manner in which the president to handling this. Tell me how the government would respond (the judges) if I had signed some big time contract without reading the darn thing first. Further more, we are supposed to be a goverment for, by and of the people. Really? How can we be involved in that decision making when our representatives haven't had the opportunity to read the bill. What has gone awry in this country. Grrrrrrrrrrrr.

On the other side of the coin is the good news that the two journalists detained by North Korea a hundred and forty days ago have been pardoned and will be sent home on former Pres Clinton's private plane. I wonder how much of the farm we sold for that exchange. I'm delighted for the girls and their families. I'm concerned for what this may say to the other countries in the world that play by their own rules. Just today we hear three back packers have been detained in Iran. Ouch. I'm sure glad the Word tells us that God is in control of the rulers of the nations. Help us Lord.

I got my driver's license renewed today. The picture is so laughable. It is horrendous and doesn't look a thing like me. (I hope).

Thursday and Friday

2009-07-30T08:49:00.015-05:00

My brother and sister in law from Wisconsin are coming today to visit. My younger brother and wife will join us at Dad and Mary's for dinner tonight. The eighty plus year year olds are he host and hostess. To typical. Mary is a hostess innately. What a woman. We will have the fruits of their garden, Im sure. What a man. That grandpa is quite the gardener.

Fast forward to Friday evening. A delicious meal we had last night. The socializing was most enjoyable as we shared many memories of growing up years. I recalled Dad buying a milk cow and raising chickens for eggs after he returned from the war. I can still picture him on a one leg stool filling a stainless steel bucket with warm fresh milk straight from Bossy. I was the only kid then so the only one with that memory. I also singlely remember the two sheep Dad bought to "mow" the lawn. Only problem was that they were tethered to a tree and one of them choked himself on the rope and died. So Sad.

I have a birthday this weekend so Mary outdid herself by designing a five layer cake filled with various fillings. When I got home I opened the card from Dad and Mary. I nearly cried when I read that Dad had listed seven memories of when it was just Dad, Mom, and me. One of the things that touched my heart was that he wrote how hard it was to be seperated from me during WW2. I was a newborn and he returned when I was three. He wrote how thrilled he was to see me with Mom when he returned. He had never mentioned that to me before and it moved me deeply. His list of memories about only me poured healing oil over my heart. Parents were not all that expressive in those days and to hear the deep feelings of his heart was so wonderful.

Today, my brother and wife stopped to say goodbye. I suggested we go to the Dairy Adventure for some icecream. We climbed in the car and were soon sucking on our ice cream. While they had been to the tour before, they hadn't had the ice cream so it was a special treat. After we got home they left for their home in Randolph Wisconsin. Short but sweet visit.

Mixed Emotions

2009-07-29T18:58:00.003-05:00

Waiting for the doctor's office to call all day just wears me to a frazzle. Finally, at five o'clock the office called and told me about a drug they are adding to the new diuretic they prescribed a Monday. Nothing has broken loose yet so hopefully tomorrow when I take this jump start pill, we will get some results.

This morning I had some energy so I decided to ride into town to see if I could find some garage sales. All I need is some more "stuff" but it is fun to pay a couple of bucks for a new look. I enjoyed the time I had all by myself.

Today, Scarlen, Isaiah and Ken moved the trampoline to Isaiah's house. Ken will not have to move it one more time when mowing and Isaiah will have something he loves. Another thing accomplished. It is another reminder that our lives have changed dramatically. Mixed emotions.

The Grass is Always Growing....On our Side of the Fence

2009-07-27T14:17:00.003-05:00

I got a new direutic today. I pray and ask you to join me that it will work to turn around this fluid weight gain. I am waiting for good results. I told my step mother that it hadn't worked an hour after I took the pill.....she said, "Girl, you're looking for magic". I had to confess that would be nice. Instead I wait on the supernatural work of my Creator.

Not much going on today. I did stop by Dad and Mary after I went to CVS for my prescription. We visited awhile and then I felt led to leave and let them have their hot meal for the day. My dad's pickup was backed up to the road with tomatoes and fresh green beans. They didn't have much business but then when it is the first day one is out, no one knows you are there. As my dad said, the word will get around. Mary had a red umbrella fixed over the beans so the sun didn't dry them out. They are so entertaining......

Ken is putting out the sprinklers after mowing the lawn. We don't have under ground sprinklers but the man has his plan down to a science. I smile as he takes it all so serious. He has a big pump and a well he draws his water from. It is pretty impressive. His grass is the greenest in the neighborhood and that is satisfying to him.

Slow Sunday

2009-07-26T16:35:00.003-05:00

Cubs win! Cubs win! Cubs are a half game ahead of the pack and are now in first place. That makes MOST of my family really happy. There is one in law and his wife, our daughter who is a traitor to the Sox but oh well. It's the majority that counts.

Finally after many years of sheer frustration, Dish came and fixed the TV in the sunroom. I have had a non working remote so had to get up each time a show was over, go into another room and check the guide to see what my choices were. Ugh. Now that Ken has been through this with me from time to time since I've been sick, something was done! Hurrah. I now have a beautiful picture and great remote. I'm thankful.

I've pretty much rested today. It was a VERY busy week. Ken went to church and I took in The Hour of Power. I enjoyed the preaching pastor very much. The music has been better to my liking but there is something about an orchestra to lead congregational singing. I wonder where the closest church is that would worship with orchestra. My guess is that it isn't very close. That truly is my heart though, and I think it brings the level of praise and worship to a higher level. Just my personal opinion but also the expression of my heart. Los Angeles would be a long way to travel to church each week.

Week in Summary

2009-07-25T19:47:00.002-05:00

Wow......one week and have been visited by six of our eight kids! Kendra and Craig left for home today. They were here since Tuesday. We got our Emerson fix.....she mimics EVERYTHING one says so we have to be careful. Words we use as adults don't always sound good coming from an eighteen month old. She is just so precious.

Jennifer came on Thursday. Joshua came today to finish a painting job he worked on two weeks ago. He is such a sweet kid.......always giving. He got the job done and it all looks beautiful.

John and Kim and their five sweet kids came this afternoon and spent time here. Before we knew it, all of them were working in our gardens and when they left they left a promise to come back on one of John's days off to do MORE. As they worked today they seemed to develop a vision so I smiled at Ken and said, "Let them do what they want to do, I love it". John transplanted a bunch of hostas and seem big sedum. The area where our neighbors weeded has been transformed. Hopefully there will be no room for weeds any longer.

Of course, Lauri and Elton and Scarlen were in and out during the week. Lauri takes control of the meals for which I am so grateful.

A couple of John's kids and Lauri's kids were conniving to spend time at the other's home. We laughed at their creativity. In the end both sets of parents consented and one could hear a chorus of cheer from the kids. So Mackenna is off to Michigan and Kyle is staying in De Motte. They were happy clams. I smiled as John said to the adults, "I really think this is the only opportunity all summer that they have to spend time together." We always listen to what John says. Welllllll, almost always.

What a joy to have a family that loves one another. We are most blessed. With the dynamics of four adopted and four bio kids, we are such recipients of God's grace and love. To God be the glory forever and ever! I couldn't love each one of them more. Various personalities and personal challenges but oh so wonderful. People thought we were a bit crazy some twenty five years ago. Actually, we found ourselves questioning ourselves at various points, BUT, our blessings have overflowed. I always knew it was God who orchestrated the whole idea to adopt older children. I just didn't always trust Him for the outcome. He was faithful. That is a lesson for me right now, isn't it?

God's blessing for a day of rest.

It's already Thursday?????!!!!!!!!!

2009-07-23T16:13:00.003-05:00

It has just been plain busy. Kendra and Craig with Emerson came on Tuesday and it's been crazy since then. I can't remember what ate the time away. All I know is that watching and engaging with Emerson keeps of us busy and entertained. Today, Jennifer came from Chicago to golf with her dad and Craig. They were gone the better part of the day. I'm sure it was a bonding time. Jennifer is ready to return to Chicago, Lauri's family is here along with K and C so I'm in the sunroom trying to stay out of the firing line. It's so busy and I'm not totally up to it all yet. The girls are planning dinner at Lauri's house.....I would have ordered out but then there are quite a few of us. Sydney and Emerson are sitting on the floor in here playing with a Fisher Price barn....which was one of our few garage sale finds this week. It is pretty cool.

More tomorrow........

Mellow Monday

2009-07-20T14:07:00.003-05:00

It started out a bit like a fall morning. Fifty five degrees. Brrrrr. Now the thermometer says 80 so a warm up has occurred. It was such a beautiful morning. Just proves we have a global warming problem. I think Gore and his entourage have their heads you know where. It is just ridiculous the money our government is spending on this fraud. When I see the scientific data it shows to me that we are in a natural swing in temperature, something that has happened for thousands of years. Do the thoughts of some today baffle your mind? Blows me away. What happened to reasonable?

Bernice called this morning and asked what I was doing. I told her I was cleaning up because Kendra and Craig are coming tomorrow. She said she would be right over to help. What a sweetie. She did the things I felt were important and then she did my laundry. What a help. I feel all ready for tomorrow now. What would I do without her in my life?

Scarlen and Isaiah stopped by for awhile as well. Scarlen worked on the computer for a time and I spent some precious moments with Isaiah . He also got worked out on the trampoline. He is supposed to take that home but Mom's having a time finding someone with a truck. Ken will be glad to have the thing out of the yard because it is a pain to move every time he mows. It has always been Isaiah's good friend. He loved it when I stood in the sunroom and watched his flips. Memories are made of this.

Sunday Selections

2009-07-19T11:12:00.005-05:00

Now I know those who read my blog have comments along the way. Why not share them with me? It would encourage me to go on. All you need to do is click the word comment on the bottom of the blog and share your heart with me. Please.

Now Sometimes surprises happen suddenly and totally unexpected. One of our church families lives up the road and up the hill from us. I don't think Tawnya has ever been to our house before. Late yesterday afternnoon a friend and I were visiting in the sunroom and I heard some voices come through the door. There was Tawyna and two of her little boys, probably number two and three of their five small children. Tawyna stood in the door way to the sunroom and explained that she was finished with the yard work at her home and that her husband was still mowing so she took the kids over to do whatever I wanted done in my yard. Eureka!. I didn't skip a beat, I knew the garden to the east of the sunroom and back of the main part of the house was full of weeks. Tawyna looked out the window and said, Yep, sure enough. Some forty to forty five minutes later, the garden was clean and my spirit lifted a mile. Those little boys were learning at their mother's side to help a neighbor in time of need and also was teaching them what the difference between a perennial and weed is. What a good mom! Thanks Tawyna and boys. Anyone that pulls out weeds for me is special. I'm so grateful.

Is anyone else watching the British Open? Tom Watson, age fifty nine, is doing so well. I find myself praying for the man. He maintains incredible control and shows immense humility. What a witness for good sportsmanship. At the moment he is one under but hopefully he can pull it off. What a historic event it would be. We will know the outcome at the end of the day.

Our friend Joni, the new mommy in the header picture, was taken to the hospital last evening. She is suffering from an infection due to some residue left in her uterus after the birth. We are asking for prayer that this will not become worse as Joni is threatened by infections. Joni's dad is with her at the hospital, her husband came home and is trying to get some rest and Linda, Joni's mom is caring for the baby. Just when we thought all was well. God bless the medication to her body and rid it of infection.

2009-07-18T09:59:00.003-05:00

My husband has a new addiction and it is chasing a white ball around a course of green grass and trees. He spent yesterday morning satisfying that craving. Third time this week. When he returned home slightly after 12:30, I suggested he take me to Kohl's in Merrillville. I had a 30% off coupon and it was burning a hole in my bargain dreams. Soooooo, he was very cooperativeand off we went.

Ken found better deals than I did and I'm the queen of deals. I always praise God that He shows me favor when I enter a store. It was Ken's turn this time. He got a pair of shorts and New Balance tennis shoes for less than twenty dollars. I found a coat I couldn't resist. The original price was 116.00 and I paid 22.00. Ken reminded me that I have on similar. Oh well, another has to be a benefit. Actually, if I were going to church this cool morning, I'd have the opportunity to wear it. Soon enough, I'm sure.

A friend just arrived and we will have tea.....more later

TGIF For all You Working People

2009-07-17T07:50:00.002-05:00

The day was so beautiful yesterday, it put a bug in us to do something more enjoyable than sitting in a chair watching gold fish. Ken suggested we call friends in Rossville Indiana, about eight miles east of Lafayette. We met Bev and Gene about thirty years ago when we were rearing our children. We met at a Chicago Korean Lion Club appreciation picnic for families who had adopted Korean children. Bev and Gene had six bio children and then adopted four Korean girls. It was apparant that this family loved God and wanted to do His will. They also expressed a bit of free spirit and that was attractive to me. We struck a life time friendship on the spot. Our adopted kids and theirs, seemed to bond as well. Distance hasn't always helped hold us together but now that we and they have more time in life, we have seen them more. So I gave Gene a call. Whatcha doing? Oh, we are at the fair with three great grands and two grands. Wow....call that bravery. Gene and Bev are pushing eighty years old and seem to have abundant energy. When I explained we were thinking of riding there for the evening, Gene was more than encouraging. Come on down and we will go out to eat together. Deal. This was a stretch for me but one I felt up to. We had a delightful ride down there and then spent an evening of gracious conversation and sharing of life. Reconnection with good friends is invaluable.

Today? It will unfold. The weather has taken a turn to cooler temps. I stuck my nose out the back door and decided it was sweat shirt morning here. I'm sure by midday it will warm up a bit.

Oh What a Beautiful Morning

2009-07-16T10:48:00.004-05:00

This morning, I had to go to the lab at the hospital for a blood test after fasting eight hours. I usually go in the afternoon when there are few people there and waiting is brief. BUT, I didn't take kindly to not having the freedom to eat today soooooo, we left here about seven thirty and arrived at eight o'clock. There were only four people on the list ahead of me so it was fairly painless, the wait that it. After the routine stick in the arm, we headed to the very nice cafeteria and selected our breakfast. Ken took six sticks of bacon....hmmmmm.......and scrambled eggs. I had scrambled eggs and a bagel with cream cheese. The bill? $2.77 for the two of us. I have heard that many seniors go there for their dinner. Why not? They have good food and one can't beat the price.

Our coffee drinks at Starbucks far surpassed the price at St Anthony's. Oh, well, gotta live a little too. We called Lauri and Elton for their orders as we drove up to the drive through. Lauri was quick to jump on the bandwagon, Elton said his coffee would be enough. Now I know the boy loves one of SB's cold drinks but no amount of encouragement would sway his decision.

We took the river road home (so as to avoid the interstate where construction is at work). Close to the river begins the Kankakee Marsh County Park. It's tree thick forest and bayous are unspoiled. The road becomes narrower and the shadows from the morning sun danced on the road where the trees gave the rays a chance to get in. The bayous were covered edge to edge with green algae. Those same determined rays of sun reflected a lime green and chartreuse hue. It was simply gorgeous and with the temperature around 70 it was a morning where praise to our creator God came without effort. The distance the ride covers can't be over a half mile, but the joy of riding through this natural treasure is always worth the extra time it takes to go out of the way. The wood plank bridge with its tall steel sides only adds to the mystique. I love it. I think I wrote a blog about talking to a beautiful fox that stood next to the road right over the river. She stood still and looked at me as I talked to her through my open window. It will always stand out as a highlight in my experience with wild life.

May the Lord bless and keep each of you this day and always.

Midweek Musings

2009-07-15T14:12:00.005-05:00

Those oldy but goody golfers of which my husband is a part seem so lucky with the weather on their golf days. Ken left in the rain this morning fully confident the clouds would dissipate and golf would go on. Soon after he left, the sun came out and while it has clouded up a few times, it is still perfect golfing weather. I would think it is time for him to return to the roost about now. The golf bug has bit him hard.

This morning, I made the rounds. First I went to daughter, Lauri's, and ate a bagel with her. Her husband has vacation this week and the four kids are at their other grandparents in Michigan so visiting with the two adults is a treat.

From there I went around the subdivision to Joni's and Jason's house. I wanted to see that baby with my own eyes. She is just beautiful......full head of dark hair and little doll face. Joni asked if I wanted to hold her and while I will in the future, I just couldn't bring myself to interrupt the baby lying face down on her mommy's chest. Joni will not be able to handle the baby as easily when she gets more mobile so I told her I'd come back another time. Joni looked wonderful. Jason was pooped. There was a care taker for Joni there so I told Jay he should sidle up next to Joni and take a power nap. I believe he was going to do that.

After seeing the miracle baby, I stopped at my dad and Mary's house. We visited awhile and then Mary invited me to stay for lunch. Mary and Dad have been married 31 years. God couldn't have given Dad a better helpmeet after my mother's death. She is a jewel and takes excellent care of my dad. We dearly love her and credit her with much of my dad's zest for life and his health. Of course, God is the source but Mary has cooperated with Him to the best of her ability. If one could see how hard they work and how much good food they consume, one would agree. Last evening Mary canned 11 quarts of pickled beets from their garden. Yikes. I wish I had that energy. At any rate, Mary served us cooked baby carrots, fresh green beans, new pickled beets, tomatoes from their garden, and fresh blue berries. I think I got my veggies for the day. They ate some pork which is not my favorite so I politely declined. I sure did enjoy the rest of it though.

Dad was more than a little interested in the letter from the long lost cousin of yesterday. He had all kinds of questions which I couldn't answer so I invited him to our house sometime soon to put in a three way call to Jackie. Jackie, if you are interested in such an arrangement, let me know when would be a good time. BTW, your book is in the mail.

The golfer is finally home so I will post this and visit with my man.

Let's Try Again

2009-07-14T17:54:00.003-05:00

Today, I received a letter in the mail from a name I didn't recognize. When I opened the envelope, I was delighted to read that a distant cousin, perhaps second or third, (I haven't sorted out the generations yet) had read one of my blogs and learned we share a grandmother. Amazing. Who would have thunk it? I have cousins in Houston. As she shared the things she was seeking, I realized our book, "Spirit Trained Eyes" would fill in a myriad of blanks for her. It seemed rather bold to call someone I didn't know and ask them to buy one of our books. As I expected she was more than open to the idea and I think rather excited as well. I will try to get a book off to her in the morning. I look forward to future communication with Jacque. Isn't God an awesome God? Yes, he deals in families. I smiled to hear that she and her family honor the God of our heritage.

My dear friend of forty years came around noon today. She always lifts me up. She spruces up areas of my house and just plain talks positively. I love you, Bernice. I always thought it would be me taking care of you since you are seven years my senior. But, now, you take care of me. Thank you.

My youngest brother and wife came late this afternoon. Their neighbor is pulling out blueberry bushes and they are trying to pick ahead of him. They brought us a couple of buckets full. I can't tell you how long it has been since I've had a good sweet berry but these are wonderful. Thanks Jer and Lu.

I've written in my blog prior that our friends' quad daughter was expecting a baby. To say that friends and family were concerned is an understatement. Joni had quite a time with volitile blood pressure through out her pregnancy which landed her in a Chicago hospital a few times. Thank you for your prayers for Jason and Joni and Joni's parents, our dear friends. Joni had a baby girl last week and is now home. The baby is perfectly healthy, Joni had her naturally and is recovering quickly. The whole experience is evidence of God's immense grace.

I ask you to join me in declaring that the healing power of Jesus is at work in my body and that I am getting better every day.

Contently at Home

2009-05-21T10:20:00.002-05:00

Today is a big garage sale day and I've decided to stay at home and rest. I think it was a good decision. I have a reflexology appt at 11:30 and that is enough excitement for the day. I'm resting n the truth that God knows my need. Better than I know myself. When I let my mind dwell on what I think I need and how it should be filled, I feel a pain in the pit of my stomach. Trying to do it myself again. God help me to keep his truth forever before my mind and emotions. I needed today to get back in touch with the heart and truth of God.

Last evening, Isaiah began to pack up the things in his bedroom. I think I saw eight to ten boxes go out of there. When I walked in his room this morning to observe the emptiness, I was stunned. It doesn't look like much is gone. I'm not sure where the kid hid all his STUFF, but that room is sure to be easier to clean once it is all gone. One step at a time. It looks like his mom has the same issues, stuff, stuff, stuff. Moving does not look like much fun to me.....

Bitter and Sweet

2009-05-18T09:27:00.002-05:00

It looks like it will be a beautiful day....lots of bright sunshine and warming temperatures. Yesterday the sun shone but the wind still bit. Hopefully, that won't be the case today. I am oh so ready for warmth...

It is certainly quiet here today. Ken left early to golf......his passion these days. Isaiah is back in school after the weekend and Scarlen is moving things from her storage unit to her new place of living. It feels rather weird as she packs up her boxes and her room becomes more empty. While we all feel ready for this change in our lives, it still causes some apprehension. She says they will not move "OUT" until after Isaiah finishes school and once he returns from his class trip to Washington DC. That gives us a couple of weeks yet. Saturday night I offered him some dinner while he was lying in bed after being up all night having had a friend over. Yes, he would take the food if I would bring it to him. I fussed a bit, just for principle's sake and then brought him his food reminding him he wouldn't be here for us to spoil him anymore. "Bummer" was his reply. Being empty nesters for the first time in 46 years will be a bit bitter and a bit sweet. God help us adjust.

Joni's Shower

2009-05-17T16:48:00.004-05:00

A pleasant Sunday. Good time of worship this morning.....lunch with our friend's Jim and Linda.....a nap sitting in the chair while watching (smile) the Cub's game. I did come to attention during the bottom of the ninth when they rallied. One run too few to tie it up so Houston won. It did give some excitement at the end.

Yesterday was the baby shower for Joni and Jason, the quad and her husband. The pregnancy has been nip and tuck this last couple of months. She is now a bit over six months so we hope she hangs on another month or so. She was in Prentice Hospital in Chicago last week and they told her she would have to stay for the remainder of her pregnancy. Joni 's condition changes on a dime so a change inf medicine made her more stable and they sent her home. That gave her an opportunity to attend her own shower. Linda and Jim are Joni's parents. They were so exhausted today and asked if we would go "out" to eat and visit. As usual we had a good time topping off our excursion with a jamocha shake from the new Arby's nearby. We were disciplined enough for both couples to share a shake with their spouse. Those could get addictive.

Friday

2009-05-15T17:36:00.003-05:00

It's been a couple busy days........This is the first time I opened the computer in two days. Sometimes I look at it and go, "naw......" I don't want to become a slave to it this time around.

I talked to my friend, Bernice, late afternoon and she told about an oatmeal bake she made today that sounds wonderful. Later she invited us to spend the evening. I asked if there was any oatmeal bake left and she said, "plenty". When I called back to tell her we would be there, she said to tell Ken there is pecan pie and ice cream to top it all off. We hit a bingo.

I get a stomach ache every day when I think about what to feed us for dinner. I cooked for forty five years and now, with my salt limit, it is no fun anymore. Of course low sodium meals are not all that available in restaurants either so it gets tricky. So an oatmeal bake sounds wonderful and I don't even have to make it.

Scarlen and Isaiah are going to join Lynette in renting a very nice house in town. We went through it today and I fell in love. I wish I had that house. All one floor and very spacious. Today, I bought some things Scarlen had requested I look for at a garage sale to fill some needs. It's amazing how God provides the desires of our hearts. I got a bed frame and nice full sized box spring and mattress for the young prince in our lives. He is getting so lanky there isn't room for him in his twin bed anymore. The price? Fifteen dollars. I also got a lovely reclining chair and ottoman for her. Ken painted the bathroom about a month ago and I thought I'd get to a shower curtain and rug sooner or later. That time was today......all the right colors......all for five bucks. Thank you Lord.

Garage Sale Heaven

2009-05-13T16:37:00.003-05:00

What a day! Nice weather for ducks. And for garage salers. Well, not really. I met a friend about eight this morning. She is an avid garage saler and has it down to a science. When she asked if I had the list for today, I told her I didn't. She told me to look in the Action Plus...a little nothing paper. I looked guilty and said, "Ken is right, if the ink is dry, I throw it away." She looked horrified. So it was decided we meet somewhere. I had fun with her ducking the pouring down rain and checkin' out the treasures. I spent six dollars and for that got a tiffany tea pot lamp...adorable.....a lovely rubber backed throw rug........a brand new...in the box...Pampered Chef pizza stone and a vinyl garbage container that fits my bathroom better than the old one that I promptly dumped in the garbage.

The morning sales all scanned, I stopped for coffee with a friend and then came home for a short time and tidied up the place. Then out again for the afternoon sales.....this time....I picked up Lauri. We found a never taken out of the box Oster blender for five bucks, which was an item on Scarlen's list. Lauri made out like a champ and came home to tell her kids she had found garage sale heaven.

Now I'm home and exhausted. I don't know how people do this three days in a row. There is another list for tomorrow and it's supposed to be a nicer day. Actually, it is 4:45 this afternoon and the sun just peeked out. Oops, there it goes again. So much for that. The rain seems to have stopped but the wind is just whipping.

Asparagus Season Once Again

2009-05-12T10:34:00.008-05:00

Another bright and sunny day. Eureka! I love it. Now if we could blow in a few degrees more in the temperature column, it would be perfect. Of course nothing is perfect long, is it? Soon we will be wishing to turn down the outside thermostat.

It's asparagus season here in De Motte. Mary, my stepmom and my sister in law tell me they find enough in the ditch banks to keep them enjoying the wonderful vegetable. I haven't found any growing wild. I think I will have to break down and buy some. Early this spring when Meijers or other big markets had asparagus, the stalks were often thin and spinly. I don't like thin asparagus. Give me the thick ones....then it feels like I've got something to sink my teeth into.

As we drove by a small particle of land in town a few nights ago, I pointed out to Isaiah that when our eldest child started kindergarten at De Motte Christian, the kids and I picked asparagus on what was then an asparagus patch. We rented it from a church acquaintance. This was to be the answer to the tuition that our budget didn't have extra for. My kids were then five, three and under a year. Lauri was the baby and she slept in the car as I dragged wooden boxes row after row to put in our precious harvest. Obviously I had the big help of a five and three year old and at each stalk we bent over to crack it off at the root. Some mornings were freezing cold, others were hot and humid. Oh my goodness, when I think of getting out so early in the morning with three little bitty kids, it makes me exhausted. I wish I had the energy I had then but I wouldn't want to do it again. The asparagus picking was a project that went on a few years and we picked other patches as well. I loved picking asparagus as a kid, but then I rode on a picker and my seat was just above the ground so snapping was easy. There were also other kids on the picker to chat and have fun with. I started helping my dad and mother pick asapargus when I was five. I drove the tractor while they sat on the picker. My dad would yell at me when I let the wheels go into the row. His famous line was, "Keep the pot over the middle of the row!". The pot was a tractor part that was to be my guide. A little kid's mind wanders sometimes.

Looking Back

2009-05-11T14:49:00.003-05:00

Mother's Day 2009.........

Saturday, Kendra and Craig and Emerson arrived just before noon. Ken was gone to a golf outing with our son John in Stephensville Michigan so we decided to go to KFC for the free two piece meal. We found when we got there that KFC couldn't keep up with the demand and stopped supplying the free meals. We surrendered our coupons and were told we would get some back in the mail. It didn't change our minds, we still had the same meal, the only difference was that we had to pay for it.

We spent the afternoon together at Lauri's house and enjoyed each other's company. Yesterday, Lauri hostessed, (Thank you, Lauri). We had strip steak and burgers. Everyone seemed to enjoy the meal immensely. I'm not a steak lover so I enjoyed my burger. Particpants in the day were Lauri and Elton and their four kids, Dad and Mary, Craig and Kendra and Emerson, Scarlen and Isaiah, and John and Kim and four of their five children. It was a blessed day. The best part was watching the cousins enjoy each other and watching our little fifteen month old express her darling personality. Grandma had fun introducing her to bubbles. Too bad it was so cold and windy.

Mother's Day always humbles me. I know without a shadow of a doubt that I messed up plenty. I do remember asking God over and over to bless that which I had right and negate the negative of anything I had wrong. I also remember so enjoying the stage when my older children were in junior high and the early years of high school. I hear now that they did some things I didn't know about which would have grieved me. But God was gracious and didn't let me know that until they were beyond their unsettled young adult stages. They kind of like to tell on each other and I think it is funny that at forty, give or take a few, there are some that still don't want us to know certain things. One of my kids asked if I had had parties when I was young and my parents were gone and I honestly answered that I hadn't. Another daughter said, "Mom was a goody two shoes". The truth of the matter is that my friends and I were all cut from the same cloth. We knew there were perimeters our God and our parents had set. We tried to stay within those perimeters. It wasn't being a goody two shoes, just obedient. There was a greater sense of obedience in those days. I never had a curfew....didn't need one. One may say that was fear and there is some truth to that. I always felt I just could not disappoint my parents. No alchohol....didn't taste beer until I was 33 and in Korea. No cop calls. No tickets (though I could have had a hundred with my heavy foot) I pushed the envelope at times but made it through those years without a disaster. I certainly was not perfect.....God forgive the sins of my youth.

Cleaning and Planning

2009-05-08T13:50:00.003-05:00

Is this not the most cloudy spring on your human record? Perhaps it is because I'm so sensitive to dark and gloomy weather. The sun comes out to tease me for about ten minutes and then it is gone again behind this sea of cloudy down. Ugh. Each week I think it will get better the next week and then I look at the extended weather forecast. Rain.....clouds...... and a peek of sun for as many days as I care to think about. It used to be I went to work each day and the weather didn't affect me much. Once I got in the school, I forgot all about the weather. Perhaps I have too much time on my hands.

I spent the day redding things up as the Amish say. I dusted and found little pockets of yucky dirt that I took the time to clean up. It's funny how one can miss things that are clearly in need of cleaning. I took the bedroom phone into the light and was shocked at the DIRT between the buttons. I attacked that thing with a vengence and now have the cleanest phone around and probably one that is germfree too. Clorox wipes did the trick. I clean the phone in the kitchen regularly but kind of looked over the one in the bedroom. I suppose I should check the one in the family room, too. I've read that germs also breed on a computer keyboard. I try to keep that in check as well. Ken thinks I'm nuts but it feels good to know those places are clean.

Scarlen was home most of the day so she did the laundry.........Ken vacuumed, so together we are Friday clean again.

Kendra, Craig and Emerson are coming to De Motte tomorrow. John called and he and Kim and five kids will drive down Sunday after his morning duties at their church. Grandpa and Grandma, Scarlen and Isaiah, and Ken and I will all be at Lauri's for lunch. Lauri has planned a menu designed for the guys to do the grillingand the oven to bake the potatoes. There will be six mothers there so we choose not to work all day on our day of honor.

Happy Mother's Day weekend to each of you who are blessed to be mothers. Is there a better joy in the world?

First Things First

2009-05-07T14:33:00.002-05:00

Daughter Lauri called early this morning. "How about seeking out a few garage sales?" Sounds good to me but I haven't spent my time with the Lord yet today. She said she hadn't either and that we would both do that when we got back and hold each other accountable as well. . We had a good time looking for signs and finally finding the ones whose signs were a bit confusing. I didn't find anything exciting but it was fun to look at the treasures people are parting with. Lauri found a very nice black framed full length mirror for her girls. Other than that, we kept our money in our pocket. When we returned home, it was time to give God some time. I found it rather awkward trying to get into something I usually do in the early hours of the day. I think I learned a lesson. Make sure I get it in early on Thursday mornings. First things first as Scripture tells us.

It is just a beautiful day today. I remember well the days I worked at school and could only look out the windows. So, my heart goes out to all you who are working indoors and couldn't get out to enjoy the day. Perhaps there will be a few nice hours after you are get off.

Coupons

2009-05-06T12:43:00.002-05:00

I've made the rounds this morning. My friend, Bernice, called to tell me about the KFC coupons Oprah talked about yesterday. Two piece grilled chicken meal with two sides and a biscuit free. The only catch is that one cannot choose the pieces....they give you what they have ready. Bernice said one had to print the coupons off a particular website and she didn't know how to access it. So I said I'd stop by. We got the job done and I printed some for me too. In addition I printed two for my dad and wife. They are super tight about eating out but I think if it is free, they will meander up town for a meal soon. Mary needs a break....she cooks every day and does such a good job. She is a great cook and the hostess with the mostess.

So after I left Bernice, I stopped to deliver the free coupons to my father. He was outside, sinking a fence post. For all you non farmers, that is really hard work. The man is 89 years old. Amazes me. He took the coupons with a smile and seemed pleased. Mary was out for lunch with a group of ladies from their church so he was by himself. I almost felt guilty driving off and leaving him but it was my problem not his. He was just fine. Just an eldest daughter concerned for her father.

Now I'm waiting for my husband to come home. The man finds a reason to be gone all the time. Is there an unspoken message in that? I spoke too soon.....he just walked in the door. It's always good to have him around.

Our friend Joni was taken to Chicago to the hospital yesterday. Because of her spinal injury, she has blood pressure regulation problems and that is intensified during pregnancy. The meds they put her on last week were not working so she had a bad night and day. Doctors said to bring her in. They are monitoring her and will probably try another med. We are thankful the baby is still in where he/she needs to be to develop fully. God be merciful.

Be Careful What You Desire

2009-05-05T09:45:00.004-05:00

The sun is playing peek a boo with us this morning. It comes out, then clouds over, then comes out.........you get the picture. I wish the sun had a tail I could grab hold of and not let it go. I thrive on sunshine.

We have a perennial in our gardens that is just plain nasty. It has a runner root system and just invades everywhere. It is called red loose leaf something or other. It has pretty red leafs and plant stems, blooms pretty little yellow flowers most of the latter part of the summer.......BUT.......we are ready to rid our lives of this irritant. Last night, Ken took Round up and began to attack them. The only problem is that some of our good flowers will probably be affected as well. At this point we feel we have to sacrifice something to get rid of these things. My apologies to anyone I gave starts to over the years. If you have them in any form, attack them now.

When one gets perennial garden fever, there is an "I want it all" in one's mind. Every new plant is exciting and then one gets into hybrids and different colors......it goes on and on. The first year a perenial garden is planted, they sleep, the next year they creep and the third year they leap. By the fourth year, one wonders what one has done????? Yikes....what do I do with this mess. My gardens are older than that fourth year and I have pulled out liberally. I even consider having someone come with a power tool equal to the task and get rid of the whole mess, plant grass and let my husband enjoy his Simplicity toy by cutting it. While I talk destruction, there are some pretty areas that I wouldn't get rid of at the moment. The caution today is.........be careful what you plant and where you plant it. I know there is a spiritual lesson in all this but I think I'll let you form one in your mind. Think about the desire for material things and what that leads toooooooooooooooooo.

.Front Flips and Birthdays

2009-05-04T09:16:00.008-05:00

As Isaiah ate his breakfast this morning, he asked if I had seen him land some front flips on the tramp yesterday. I told him I saw him do it several times. "But I lost it and couldn't do it anymore." Why? "I guess because I needed you to watch me."

After I watched several successes I left the sunroom and went to other areas of the house. I wasn't aware he knew I was watching. How often in life, we can accomplish something because someone we love is cheering us on in some way. That person doesn't even have to know they are doing the cheering. At age thirteen, one is never sure if one is welcomed into their realm or if they want their own private space and the boy I live with likes his own space a lot. Years ago, I could plant a kiss on that face and know that love gesture was appreciated. Not so much now. I sneak one in now and then but it always produces a grimace. Life changes as our kids and grandkids grow up. It isn't as easy to show physical love....but I learned this morning that love to Isaiah is watching him do front flips on the trampoline. Love never fails.

We have two other grandboys that have reached a new level today. Our Aidan Jay in Phoenix turns 12 today. Ethan Luke who lives down the road a piece turns 8. We celebrate their lives and the blessings of health and well being God has provided them. We also celebrate their intact families. God is good. Happy Birthday, boys. We love you and are proud to call you grandsons.

Ken is out chasing a little white ball with an iron club this morning. He is like a kid eager to open the gifts under the tree when he can leave early and head for the golf course with his senior cronies. It is a beautiful day, so far, and the temps are mild so it is good weather for his passion. Scarlen just left for work and I have a prisoner's Bible study lesson to look over to make sure they are "getting the truth". It is always heart rending to read their prayer requests. I then have an appointment at a reflexologist at noon.

Hope your day is productive. Let's remember to praise our God throughout this day.

Coffee, Tea and Banana Bread

2009-05-03T16:28:00.004-05:00

Sitting in my favorite room of the house....the sunroom........west window open and warm wafting breezes cross my chair. Another wafting item would be the smell of banana bread I baked this afternoon It's been done for a couple hours but the aroma still pervades the whole house. We took a loaf to our good friends, Jim and Linda, as we invited ourselves for coffee and tea. Good friends and fresh BB...doesn't get much better than that.

Jim and Linda's daughter Joni was in school with our youngest girls. They virtually grew up together. In 2001, Joni had a car accident that left her a quadraplegic. Joni and her fiance married about a year or two after the accident. It's been a long road for the whole family. Joni seems to take most everything in stride. Many people help with Joni's needs. On the other hand, we try to help with encouraging her parents. Jim has had a heart attack, stints, and a small stroke in the last seven or eight months. The stress of job and family care is taking its toll.

The latest stress is that Joni is pregnant and expecting a baby in July. All eight of her doctors expect it will be much sooner. We ask for prayer that Joni and their baby will come through this unscathed and healthy. While this baby is so desired, there are so many risks. Again, we try to be a listening ear and remind our dear friends of the faithfulness of God, while, we too, hold our breath and implore God for his mercy.

A good sense of humor is something both Jim and Linda have. I think that carries them a long way. Each time we are together they chuckle and laugh even about serious things that would send others over the edge. I admire and love them deeply.

Sun.........finally

2009-05-02T08:41:00.003-05:00

Praise to the Creator for a beautiful CLEAR sunny morning. It was so needed. I actually think I will need the new sunglass clips I ordered for my glasses. I had a pair of yellow tinted sunglasses one time that were just the bomb. I loved them. They made the whole world cheery and bright with no glare. I even used them at night when we were driving as they took the glare off the headlights coming my way. So, recently I got new glasses and decided I wanted yellow tint clips. They were specially ordered to fit perfectly and since I got them a couple of weeks ago, I have used them perhaps three times. Today will give me a new opportunity. I find them equally as satisfying as the pair I owned earlier.

My husband just returned home from his usual morning trip "to town". Gotta see what's new at the coffee shop, ya know. I smile when I think about the biblical mention of the men of the city sitting together at the city gate. The gate was their gathering place. The coffee shop is the contemporary gathering place. And what ever one hears at the coffee shop is gospel truth.....at least until they hear differently. Cracks me up. And they say women talk a lot. So, now, he is eating his breakfast of cereal. The restaurant gets the sale of coffee only. Smile.

Now it is time to get on with our day. Hope yours is day of joy.

For Such a Time as This

2009-05-01T13:25:00.003-05:00

During the last presidential campaign I was hooked on a blog that I couldn't wait to access each day. It was written by Megan McCain, daughter of presidential candidate, John McCain. She wrote her experiences as a daughter of a presidential hopeful, romping the US in campaign efforts. It gave me a personal insight into what the campaign was like for a young family member. I loved reading her stuff. The day after the election, the blog entries stopped. I was eager to hear more. How does one live through a national defeat? Tell us Megan...but it must have been too painful because to my knowledge, she never wrote again on that particular blog. I checked it for days and even weeks longing for some new testimony. Eventually, I didn't check it any more. BUT, I still could enjoy hearing what she has to say, especially the way things are shaking out nationally at the present time.

The entires on this blog stopped March 12 as a few of you followers realize. I didn't touch the computer for a couple of months. It held no interest to me. What I experienced the last several months has been life pausing. Everything in my life paused. While I'm not at all eager to talk about it especially through this medium, I have been on a physical, emotional and spiritual journey. Fruit basket upset would be a good explaination. For now, know that the Lord isn't finished with me yet and my life is still in the rebuild mode. If one could use a long tunnel as a continuum, I am beginning to crawl out the end. Praise God with me.

Now to other things.........

I along with many other people would like the clouds to disappear and the sun to shine upon us once again. April has been the cloudious month in my memory.

There has been some sun in our yard this week. Two weeks ago we hung a neat finch feeder on a branch in our back yard tree. We didn't see much action until this week and now it is alive with beautiful yellow birds. Against the brilliant green of the grass, they stand out as they swoop to find an open area on the feeder. Then there are those who stand in wait as they sit in the branches above. When they see an opportunity they fly down and begin to munch away. They have brought much joy. As we speak Ken is out looking for another feeder like the one we have. He would like to double his delight.

Today is May 1st. While the weather doesn't seem any different, May has to bring better weather, don't you think? I remember the Phoenix sun EVERY day in March. I should have bottled it for such a time as this.

Wednesdays Musings

2009-03-12T07:14:00.002-05:00

We are in Arizona staying with our daughter and son in law and their two kids. We have to look for things to do during the day as they all work or go to school. Yesterday, I went to the Women in the Word group at Sherri and Don's church. I was amazed at how many ladies they have coming. The auditorium was filled with tables of eight and nearly the whole space was covered. It was a very nice group of ladies around my table. Barb from Phoenix who often reads my blog, when I write one, was the leader at our table. Most of the ladies in our group were more mature and had great experience to draw from. I felt blessed to be among them. Sometimes at my own church, I feel I am the one who has to do the giving or the ministering. This time, I was ministered to. I felt as if I could Be Still and Know that He is God.

When I came home, Ken expressed he would like to go to the driving range and hit a few balls. So I rode with him and sat on a bench reading a book. Actually, I finished "The Faith of George W. Bush". While that my not make me very popular with some, it was a good window to lookat I suspected was going on in the White House during all those years. I believe the man acted out of the faith of his heart and that in time, he will be viewed differently than the way he was so disgracefully treated his last year or so. I was always amazed at the grace in which he took all the criticism. I doubt that we had many presidents whose coworkers would find them prostrate in prayer on the floor. This one was found that way several times. Let God be the judge.

Today, we are meeting some friends we made when our Korean children were young. They, ad four Korean girls. We became very fond of them but didn't get time to visit often because of the distance between us. They live an hours south of us which is a direction we don't go very often. Now they live here six month s of the year. They work at the Brewers spring training camp so have gotten us tickets to the basebal lame today. I have always chuckled about the practice of people that vacation and meet up with people from their own town with whom they generally have no contact. We are becoming those people.

This and That Again

2009-02-27T07:13:00.003-06:00

In the last twelve hours, we have witnessed the power of' God in the weather. A spring thunderstorm last night was a bit premature but it sure was powerful. One thunder crack sent me jumping in my bed. Then the temperatures plunged about twenty degrees and the wind began to blow. Now its morning and snow swirls through the air. I suppose winter finds it difficult to let go.

Its not a pretty morning....still dark, dreary and very cold. The warmth of the house is welcome.

Last night, the sixth and seventh graders had their annual science fairs. Both grandaughter Sydney and Isaiah were involved. As a parent and grandparent, science fairs give me the creeps. It such pressures kids. Next year as eighth graders they do a history fair. Now that is more interesting to me. Did you catch that I'm not one with a bent toward science? Both of our kids did well and it allows me to sigh deeply. They feel so good when they do well and so badly when they don't do as well as they hoped. They both gave it their best and that is all we can ask.

Kendra as music teacher in Crystal Lake had her student's program last night. I'm sure it went well. I used to go to each one of those. She called last night and facetiously said, "When can I expect you?" Maybe next time.

My husband got a cold about ten-twelve days ago so took himself to the guest room at night in hopes of not passing that bug to me. I needed him in bed with me at night and it was a great loss to me for those nights. Last night, we slept together again. I rested so much better having him close to me. There was a calm in me that all was well. Marriage is a mystery. After forty five years, we are much close to the two shall be one than we were at our twentieth anniversary. Life is a growth process.

The 2009 Retreat

2009-02-24T06:48:00.002-06:00

Retreat 2009
A retreat to remember.......it happened on Saturday. The theme was Outrageous Joy....and there Joy met us. Jesus that is. There were awesome testimonies of God's touch on lives. That was the goal...or rather...the goal was what ever God wanted it to be....the people he wanted to send and the results he wanted to see. I trust His Spirit is still lingering on many today.

Because of a snow warning north of here, we changed our speaker's hotel reservation from the Radison in Merrillville to a quaint B&B in Rensselaer. As it turned out, the move wasn't necessary because of weather but, the owner of the B&B accepted Glenna's invitation to come to the retreat to hear her and her life was touched with new Holy Spirit energy. It was a beauiful thing to witness.

Two Catholic gals came to Glenna after day's end with tears streaming down their faces and their words were that they never really understood salvation before. What joy that turned out to be for those young ladies.

The Holy Spirit was busy that day. I could see it as I watched the dynamics. It all had so little to do with the beauty of the setting that our committee so tirelessly worked at creating. But yet, I think the beauty softens the heart so it is in a good state to listen and receive.To God be the glory.

The Week that Is

2009-02-17T07:09:00.003-06:00

Good Morning. Sometime it takes a long time to get something one longs for with all their heart. I have not been able to sleep a full night's sleep for a couple of months. I have a sleep aid from the doctor and it would give me six hours and the rest of the night I tossed to and fro.

Last night, I slept six hours, woke up to do my thing, if you know what I mean and then went back to sleep until 7:45. I praise God for that gift. His new mercy to me this morning. Sleep is such a powerful blessing. It restores mind, , soul and body. I hear of people that struggle with sleeplessness on a continual basis and wonder how they can go on. At any rate, it feels very good to know I had my full nine hours last night.

Last minute preparations are in order for the women's retreat which will be on Saturday. Last week, the ladies that work with all paper products, guest bags, copies of materials we are placing in them name tag etc had a work party nearly every night. We have all decided that name tags can be a bit more simple in the future as the product while cute and pretty takes a tremendous amount of work hours.

Yesterday, the ladies that sort dishes, put up tables and chairs and change table lines and china after breakfast were at church setting up the dishes that will be placed on each of the fifty tables. Ugh. They seem to revel in it but it is something I'm happy not to have on my list. Another group will pick up all the food products we need to prepare 440 hot meals. Others (and some of these overlap) will be bringing things in to add to the decor to complete the eye appeal of our theme and colors. The theme is "Outrageous Joy" and our colors are bright pink and brown. Twill be cute.

My job this year is to show up. Oh, I did all the grunt work in the beginnning and have put hours into preparation that is virtually unseen. But this time, I will still serve as narrator and let the rest of the girls do their thing. I have always felt responsible for every facet. No more. I have a great committee and they can and are pulling it off just fine. God is in every part and parcel, so we go forth with confidence.

Busy Busy Saturday.

2009-02-14T15:52:00.003-06:00

My Florida son got my computer all cleaned up and I feel like a new woman. Thank you, Jay. His last instructions were, "Now back up your files!" I plan to do that tomorrow. I went through my documents today and cleaned out 167 files that I hope I didn't need anymore. They are gone....never to return.

Last night my Noblesville son and wife and children came for the night and for today. While I'm totally bushed at this time, I must say that boy can accomplish more in one morning than we can get done in a month here. Let's see...he began to fix the hole in the wall that an overzeolous video playing twelve year old put his knee through. Then he and Ken finally got the bottom drawer of our buffet open. It has been stuck for over a year.....many efforts were made in the past but this time, they hit the jackpot. Josh went on to fix cabinet hinges and closings, yippee. Each one of the little things added together felt like a ton and it was so freeing to have them fixed. Sometimes it feels like things are falling apart all around one and today was a day of building.

In the mean time, Lauri and I packed up three bags of tea pots. They are those I collected for use for the retreat and now, I am more than ready to get them out of the door. Tomorrow someone is coming to take all my luncheon sets to church permanently. Freedom. I may be able to find my house again once these things are out of here. The time has come to simplify.

You Say What?

2009-02-12T11:10:00.002-06:00

After a very cloudy day and stormy night, today dawned with a rising sun (hallelujah). The temperature is about twenty degrees cooler today than yesterday. Back to winter for awhile.

This morning, our seamstress for Peggy Sue came to do final measuring for curtains. The cushions are finished and in place. It's beginning to look really cute. I can't wait until the curtains are up and we can call the project complete. It has been a very long process. I understand from my husband that some work has to be on the underside before we take it anywhere and he tells me he needs warm weather to work on it. It was the biggest disappointment I have had in a loooooooong time. I'm still getting over it or trying at least. I seem to have resolutions that he doesn't want to hear. Oh well, we will see what we will see. All this while, I'm planning to go to Phoenix with Peggy Sue and all this time, he is planning not to take the trailer and to live with our daughter's family while there. While I'm grateful for a welcome there, I am vastly disappointed not to have my own little private living space. I could smack him right now. He says, I told you that and you didn't listen. The only thing I heard was that the bottom of the trailer needed some riveting before we went. I guess that was suppose to translate into not taking the trailer to Phoenix for me but it didn't. I had every faith that he would get the work done and then we would be ready. To be honest.......this is going to take awhile for me to adjust to the change. I don't even want to write what I'm feeling right now.

Jan's Faith

2009-02-10T09:05:00.003-06:00

Yesterday began as a mild day. My friend Jan from church came for her seventh of eight study lessons in preperation for becoming a member of church. We have had a delightful time sharing our faith, our joys and our struggles. Before she left I shared with her that I told the Lord earlier that I need sunshine right now and there didn't look there would be any so I asked Him to be my sunshine as well as my sonshine for the day. Jan looked at me and said, "Let's pray for sunshine today". I encouraged her to go ahead and pray. She beautifully told the Lord that my emotions needed to see the sun.

After lunch I sat in the chair and for the first time since I've been sick, was relaxed enough to dose off. When I woke up, I was facing the north but I saw shadows on the houses across the street. I couldn't believe it. The sun was shining! I got up quickly and spent the rest of the day in the sun room and let the good ole sun bake onto me. Thank you Lord for sunshine and for Jan's faith that believed You would send me sun.

Today the sun is shining brightly and the temps are in the fifties with the promise of sixty or more. I plan to get outside a bit today and savor the early spring air.

My husband is already home from town which is earlier than usual. Yesterday was his first golf outing of the year. Normally, I'm happy to see him go but with my need for his presence, I thought, ugh, one more day without him. So, I guess he is making up for it today. I love having him around these days.

Forgive one Another

2009-02-08T11:03:00.002-06:00

Yesterday was a wonderful day outside. It was in the fifties and the sun was bright and encouraging. As usual in spring, the balmy day brought nippy winds. If one could stay out of the wind, the sun warmed the clothes and the skin under it. I stood outside in Lauri and Elton's garage which has a south door and just leaned against their car ducking the wind. It was reminiscent of Florida last week but not quite.

In the morning, Isaiah and I cleaned up some things that really needed cleaning. Our sun room which we haven't accessed since it got cold had about twelve dead plants in it and a bunch of stuff I was done with and threw out. What a freeing feeling. Isaiah is a good help when he wants to be. Actually he did the grunt work and I did the straw bossing. I was very careful to be gentle in my instructions. He always says he likes a clean house and I like that he likes a clean house. He showed me this morning that on his own he had straightened two of our kitchen cabinets. Gotta love a kid like that. I hope he carries that helpful spirit into his adult relationship.

Ken was gone to a men's conference all day yesterday. To be truthful...the day was too long for me. I was so relieved to hear the door when he came home. He was tired and I was exhausted. We went to bed together and it felt so good to have him home safe and sound. I have come to depend on him heavily the last couple of months. Hopefully, I'll get some of my independent spirit back soon. I'm sure he will be as happy as I will be. He has been such a patient man for me.

Our service theme this morning was on our need to forgive each other. One of the exercises we could participate in was writing down those people who need our forgiveness. Or better stated, we could write the names of people we need to forgive. Often times when one harbors a resentment toward another, the other doesn't even realize the resentment. So we hurt only ourselves and we are being disobedient to God who said he would forgive our sins if we forgive others their trespasses. There are many references to that in God's word, the most obvious is in the Lord's prayer. Isn't it amazing how we can know these things and not act on them? At any rate there were three fires set up outside on the parking lot, we were then invited to confess our sins, forgive those on our list and then go outside and burn it up in the fire. Remember, God says he doesn't remember our sins. Now we can forget them, too.

Pictures Will Come, I Promise

2009-02-07T07:24:00.002-06:00

Where have I been, you ask? I supposed I'd have to say I've been trying to recoup and the last two days have been very long and exhausting. I've decided to take today slowly. I've had my time with the Lord ( which was hit and miss while we were gone and I've suffered for it). Isaiah 40 left me with great solace. "Have you not known? Have you not heard? the Creator of the ends of the earth does not faint or grow weary, there is no searching of His understanding. He gives power to the faint and weary, to him who has no might, He increases strength, causing it to multipy and making it about!" Oh do I need his power and might and He says here he gives it to those that call on Him for it. I call on you, Lord.

The sun just arrived on my day and that will bring another blessing of joy and brightness.

I also had a few frustrations with my computers when I got home from Florida. The first information I got as I met my daughter and grandson was that my computer, which seems to act as everyone's computer, had crashed while I was gone. Crashed so bad, I cant get into my files. That came as a big downer since all my women's retreat stuff is stored there. Then the laptop I had taken with me decided it couldn't access Hotmail for two days. Suddenly, yesterday after noon I thought I'd try it again and eureka, it connected. So that has fixed itself.

I promised some people in Florida that I would post the Florida pics as soon as I got home. I keep all my pictures on my crashed computer so I can't even load them. BUT, rest assured, I will get some copies made and send them to you. Oh the joys of technology.

Commiserating

2009-02-02T08:41:00.003-06:00

Monday Morning.......it rained all night. The sound was therapeutic each time I roused. I had hoped it would rain itself out by morning but while the rain has stopped and the sun has played peek a boo with me, it still isn't pretty out there yet. Sometimes it takes awhile to clear off when one is so near the ocean.

Yesterday was a very busy day. We took our time getting going after my brothers and their wives left for home. While we talked of getting ready for church, not one of us had enough energy to get dressed up. Around eleven thirty, we left to go to the ocean. It is always a beautiful sight and one that can't be skipped when here. We stood on the pier and watched the waves and pelicans diving for about a half hour. The sun was strong but the wind was nippy.

After that we made a few necessary stops for things one or the other of us needed and then we went to my dad and Mary's for a visit. A distant relative that lives on the island now and grew up with me as a child came to spend some time. It was so good to see her again. It's amazing that people that spent so much time together as children don't get to see each other in real life much because of distance. They used to live in Lansing and now spend summers at a cottag e in Michigan and winters on this wonderful island called, "Nettles". Not to tough to take.

After a tour of their new modular and a tour of the rental of some DE Motte friends, we headed back home with a very tired Gayle. Jann's daughter from Wisconsin and her family stayed the night last night so that gave me a great excuse to tell them I would leave them to visit with each other while I stole away to my room just to recoop. This trip has been a gift but a very busy gift. I think we will leave for the north tomorrow. I have too many meetings and events I have to be at and that kind of takes the fun out of VACATION. Oh, to be free of responsibility. I'm going to work on that, yes I am. All these "have tos"limit our freedom especially in the winter when it would be nice to go where we wanted when we wanted. My daughter tells me not to make those decisions now but I remember feeling this way last year as well. I love what we do, but I think it has come to the time that I say, its been a nice ride.

Enough of that.

Have a great day.

Yesterday We Honored Jack

2009-02-01T05:26:00.010-06:00

Even though the sun was shining, the wind was cold. Everyone was complaining......the natives that is. My niece apologized to me a couple of times like she could do something about it. Ken called me to come to the back yard. He instructed me to sit in a chair in a little corner. I told him there was no way I was going to sit out there in that cold. He assured me he checked it out and the sun would bake me there. I finally acquiesced. I had on a big brown sweatshirt and the sun started to penetrate through my clothes. Finally, I got warm enough to take the layer of my sweatshirt off and sit in my tank top. I sat there about an hour. When I came in to get ready for the wake, I could tell I had gotten some sun. By the time I got in my pjs last night, I was shocked to see I had a sunburn on my neck and shoulders. I even came out to the living room to show it off. We had a good chuckle together that I was going to get sun no matter what the weather might be.

Yesterday afternoon went very well. The wake was enjoyable as we watched coworkers, neighbors, and friends come by to comfort my sister and her family. Since Jann moved south many years ago, she pretty much left family behind in the north. She has a precious daughter here that has moved back here and she some members of her husband's family. The food brought in for the after the funeral dinner was beyond adequate. Besides every side dish one could imagine there was a huge ham, a big aluminun pan of fried chicken, and a luscious baked turkey and a couple of big vegetable and noodle dishes. The line of cakes, pies and brownies was a temptation to everyone. Jeanie, Jack's daughter, made my dad a pineapple upside down without sugar. He was pleased.

Our son, Jay and his wife, her mother and their two beautiful children, Austin 12 and Jessica 4 came up from West Palm and stayed until everyone else left last evening. We don't get to see those grand children often so every chance is a treasure. Even though there was only one other child here, Jann's grandson, 13, the three of them had great fun together.

Today is the Day

2009-01-31T07:20:00.003-06:00

Finally, the sun! Only 46 degrees. It isn't warm yet, but it is getting there, so they say. Supposed to get to 64. We will see.

The wake isn't until two o'clock and then the funeral is at four. It will be a long day here today. After the funeral Jann is having the luncheon here. It is interesting how differently things are done in different places. I think if I were the widow I'd prefer to let the church ladies worry about it. I could hear my sister cleaning up and making preparations from three to five this morning. Miss Tiddy Mighty. She's a trip. If anyone thinks I have been fussy in my life, they have never met my sister. Yikes. Then I remind myself that my home has always housed more people than she had at her highest count. At this point now, it is 5/1. She also has a nice new house and the rooms are larger which are easier to keep organized. Her house is a very open concept.......no stairs.....airy. Both Ken and I like the layout. Very comfortable.

I'm thinking this will be a very hard day for Sis. She has been solid as a rock but I'm afraid today will bring out the reality of this time.

Aside from hearing Jann putts outside our bedroom door, last night was the first night for two months that I slept until seven o'clock. This morning I feel more rested than I have...that is sure to help. Like I have said, "Each day is a bit better."

Sitting in a Chair Wishing it Were Warmer Today

2009-01-30T15:27:00.002-06:00

Arrived safe and sound last night around nine thirty. I am still attempting to catch up on sleep but that is a whole other subject.

Today has been a very busy day with family members all around. I'm rather weary of talk talk talk. I know it is just this time for me. I'm hoping another night will catch me up.

We spent hours today going through old pictures. We all change, don't we?

Yesterday when we got here it was 72 and had been 80. Today a cold front came in, darn it. It rained and rained today. Tomorrow is supposed to be sunny again. It better be because we will stay until we can soak in some rays before heading back north. There is not one bit of desire on my part to go back into that cold and snow. Ugh.

Jack At Peace

2009-01-27T07:39:00.003-06:00

You who!!!!!!!!!!!! My niece gave me a nice laptop she had discarded because the battery went bad. That was way back in October. Yesterday, we finally got a battery for it and it is eureka. Works like a charm and the guy at the computer shop in town says he uses the same brand and model for his office there. Yeah. Now I have somebody to answer any questions I have. This thing types nicely and doesn't jump around testing my purity like Ken's does. I think he is used to his but I'm tickled to have my very own laptop. I will still use my desk top model as my foundation but this is great for dragging along.

My sister called last evening to say that her husband was losing ground quickly. I told to call me any time during the night but she waited till six thirty to call to say Jack had slipped from this side to the other around three thirty. Last evening Jann's voice was full of anquish. There was a spirit of surrender and relief this morning. God grant grace and mercy for the days ahead.

Now what will our plans be? Don't really know for sure at this point. Looking to our God for direction.

Back to Church!

2009-01-25T11:07:00.002-06:00

I didn't know if I'd ever feel like getting back to church and thinking that my husband and grandson go to the early service was even more intimidating. BUT, today was the day and I actually enjoyed it. It was good to be among the worshipers again and great to enjoy all the family members there. One of my friends greeted me and reminded me that I would be tired by the time I got home after receiving everyone's greeting. Yep.....kind of tired but it felt good. It is wonderful to feel among the land of the living once again.

It is amazingly cold today. Right above zero. I'm more than a little tired of the cold this year. I don't remember a winter in recent memory that has been this cold continuously. I'm ready for a weather break. Florida has had its fair share of cold weather this week, too. It is just a reminder to them how we live everyday.

It looks like the sun might break through this afternoon. That can do amazing things toward bringing up the temps. The closer the sun the warmer the day; the closer the Son, the warmer the heart. Have a warm day in both catagories.

Noblesville and Its Special People

2009-01-24T06:10:00.003-06:00

Thursday was such a pretty day and I longed to go for a long ride and let the sunrays soak into my light deficient body. Ken was busy so it didn't happen. When yesterday dawned with a small hopeful glow in the south east I decided to make my move. I asked Ken what he thought about riding to Noblesville to see Josh and Susan. He thought we could do that. They are very easy to visit with and we always enjoy our time there. The sun was not shining when we pulled onto 65 south but I still had hope. It wasn't long before the glow turned into a show and we were warmed right there in the front seats of our vehicle. It was so beautiful. It was the first ride in the car for two months in which I could relax and let out many yawns and sighs.

When we arrived it was 45 degrees which eventually went to 49 degrees. I made mention around my son that dad should clean out the Durango. Josh is a pleaser so he hopped right on that one. It wasn't long before they took it to the car wash and got the outside clean, and then more importantly, to me, they pulled it into the garage and cleaned the inside til it shone. I love a clean car. Over the years with as big a family as we had/have, it wasn't always a reality for my ideal longing. But, we drove home in a car that was clean, felt clean and looked clean.

I did have an ulterior motive in going to see Susan. Susan worked for seventeen years as a cosmetologist. She knows how to cut hair. I felt mine looked pretty awful. Actually, I was not happy with my last haircut so each time I did my hair in the morning I always came up short emotionally. Susan was very willing to bring her mother in law up to standard. We made a plan and she cut and shaped it so that with a little growth we will be where I've wanted to be. Noblesville isn't too far to go for a haircut, is it?

Our visit was rich and our ride home just as enjoyable. We stayed long enough for Grandpa and DAddy to walk to the road, (a good distance) to meet Kiersten, our little first grader, at the bus. She was happy as a little lark as she told of her school day. She was even more excited about a soc hop for first graders that she was going to attend at six thirty. Blew my mind. What did we do for entertainment when we were first graders? A picnic at the end of the school year was about it. I was very tired by the time we reached home but it felt good to have accomplished some things.

The call of this spring is to reclaim our home. That means.......get all my collections out of here.....get rid of the surplus and live more simply. Each time we talked of some things Josh has been interested in over the years, he would say, I did that know I'm on to other things. That's how I feel about being the owner of three hundred glass luncheon sets and who knows how many boxes of dishes. Been there done that and now on to a more simple lifestyle.

Thank you Jesus

2009-01-22T14:28:00.003-06:00

A physican's assistant told me yesterday that she wished I had held off on a blood test I had done yesterday. Last week she told me to be thinking of getting one. I do what the doctors tell me so why she changed her mind I don't know. When I asked the reason she said it was because my kidney numbers would still show high after being on some potent stuff.

Today, my friend Mandy from my family doctor in town called to give me the results of the test. I wanted to scream so I couldn't hear them but I could tell by Mandy's excited voice that there was good news. She started this way, "We got your results and Dr. Tim wanted me to call you to report that your numbers are better!" I listened as she gave me the numbers and then got a pen and asked her to repeat them. They were BETTER! I give all the praise and glory to our healing God. It was good news that was the ultimate. It made me realize that there is a future for me........all for God's glory. He has taught me so much through this horrific experience. I would not want to repeat the pain and agony but I praise Him for showing me things I've never seen before. The really neat thing is that two of my biggest supporters; one medical and one emotional were both gone for an entire week. I can't count the times I have said, "I wish so and so were home so we could discuss this." Well, now I can't wait for both of them to get home so I can shout it from the mountain tops. God is so good, God is so good, God is so good, He's so good to me!

Praise God with us today.

A Pretty Winnter Day

2009-01-22T10:19:00.002-06:00

Wow....it is a pretty day.... at least looking out the window. I heard it is supposed to be a bit warmer today. I think Ken has anticipation of getting the Durango washed today. The true color is silver gray but it looks a drab white with the cover of salt all over it.

I have a yen to take a ride south and go until we see earth without a white cover. I don't think it will happen since I have no real agenda but I would love to get out of here. In due time. I talked with my dad last night and he said that this morning was supposed to be their lowest temperature in Florida this winter. Yikes. I think of our friends, John and Jan, who left the area and went south to get some warm weather. I hope they didn't go Florida way. This winter reminds me of the quote in Narnia that says, "it is always winter and never Christmas". When winter hangs on like it is doing this year, it is time to make a change. Lauri and Kendra and I all decided we would consider moving to Phoenix. I used to gringe at that thought, but I can't say it would bother me in the least. I would most concern myself over my dad and a few of our kids that would remain here, but they would be invited to join us. It's nice to dream, eh?

I understand Obama and his chief justice finally got the oath right on their second try last night. While that was happening it was very obvious to me that the justice had messed up the words and had thrown Obama off. It was kind of an embarrassment for both of them. Even in such a highly governmental affair, some things do go awry. Practice makes perfect but the truth stands, none of us is perfect.

Morning

2009-01-21T06:44:00.005-06:00

The day is dawning. The cars are still traveling with lights to see their way. The woods across the road and past a clearing stand in a clump of darkness against the palette of white snow. It is probably the quietest time of day one affords. The wind hasn't found its strength yet, the sun has yet to make its appearance. There have only been two cars make their way across the snow covered rural road that passes our house. It is a nice way to work into a new day. I think by contrast how we experienced early morning in Seoul Korea. When we were there thirty years ago, there was a curfew in place The city sounds quieted at night like turning off a switch at around eleven o'clock. At around four a m this city of millions woke with deafening noises. Whistles, crazy horns and bells were heard from pull carts, in addition to the noise of taxi's buses and cars. It was the craziest experience. I remember getting out of my comfortable hotel bed and gazing down ten floors at the street taking in as much of this foreign culture as I could. That was an entirely different way of greeting a new day.

Where ever we are on this morning, be it hustling and bustling or quiet and subdued, our God is the one true God and His promises for faithfulness and new mercies are available to each of His children. As I listen to the news this morning, I realize our nation needs God's mercies now more than ever. Our stock market responded to the inauguration of this new president, who many see as a savior of all we saw valuable. The first time ever, the stock market plunged on the day of the installation of a new popular president. One cannot but question.......what is going on? I guess investor's fears are still very real. Let us rest today in the knowledge and faith that our great God is in control.

Political Opinion

2009-01-20T12:12:00.002-06:00

Ken and I hold love and devotion to extended family on a high level of importance. Ken's cousin died over the weekend and the wake and funeral will be in Davenport Iowa tomorrow and Thursday. People's situations change all the time and for me, a five hour trip one way, a night in a hotel and five hours home is more than I can honestly say would be wise for me. We both came to the same conclusion without any struggle and felt better after we had made a unified decision. We both feel sorry that we will not be there to uphold and support Marcy, but she knows we love her and are praying for her. Hopefully, you will read this Marc, and know why you won't see us there. Our hearts break for your loss but we know the spirit of the Lord is up to the task of comforting you and filling you with new hope and new purpose. Please express our sympathy to Julie and the boys. This will be a particularly poignant loss for Julie. God bless. We will both be with you in thought and prayer.

An inauguration to remember. While there is a difference in political thought and philosophy, I now recognize Obama as my president. I will have more to say on this subject in the future as we look back but I won't risk stirring emotions or detracting from the joy of the day for most of us. I'm a sucker for pomp and circumstance so enjoyed all that it was. One of my biggest joys is watching the out going president and wife get on that helicopter and get the dickens out of the rat's nest called DC. I can't imagine the relief. Especially for George and Laura who inspite of the criticism and unkind remarks have remained gracious and dignified. I wonder what they said as they plopped down and that copter wisked them away. I know George said he will make Laura some coffee in Crawford tomorrow morning but that he didn't know what they would do after that. God bless and honor them with rest and respite. I'm guessing they need it really badly.

I was impressed with the vitality that the Carters displayed. I was saddened to see the age show on GHW Bush. CNN called his office to see what was going on and they were told that he has walked that way since a back surgery in '07. Barbara is still Barbara. What a vision of strength she is. Gotta love that woman. I felt a pang of sorrow for Cheney too as knowing him as we do would never choose to express physical weakness. And since when do presidents and vps carry their own moving boxes?

Pray for wisdom and divine insight for Obama. I can't imagine tackling even a day of the job ahead of him.

I have a high respect for each of our former presidents. Ooops, I lied. I still can't get past the lack of dignity Clinton showed to the whole world. How he can hold up his head before the world belies my understanding.

Just a bit of political opinion poll from me. If yours is different, I'd love to hear it.

Grammar and Grief

2009-01-19T07:14:00.004-06:00

I had a good chuckle last night while reading a bit of one of the book series I love. There was a conversation between the parson and an old country bumpkin. The beloved bumpkin was throwing his "ain'ts" around with abandon. It suddenly tickled me so good as my memory was brought back to my teacher mother and my less than educationally interested father. My father hated school. He is a brilliant man but was not keen on taking on the habits of the ivory towers. To this day he has a bit of suspicion about higher education. I can hear my mother correct him over and over when the ain't word came out of his mouth. He just paid her no mind. After my mother died, he married another teacher and one that was very concerned about diction and proper grammar. Smile. My dad was not left in the dust over his use of ain't. He was very successful as a business man and as my brothers and I reminisced Saturday, he always wrote checks for his new cars. He wore a suit and tie every day of his work life and somehow kept up his dignity dispite the ain't word.

One generation down.........my sister and I wouldn't use ain't on a bet BUT, my two brothers carry on their father's tradition. My husband was a Chicago boy and educated in private schools. Then he moved to De Motte and started taking grammar lessons from those around here including my father. "Ain't" does flip out of his citified mouth. Years ago it bugged me and I tried just as diligently to correct him. He listens as well to me as my father did to my mother. I think I have accepted that neither he, my father or my brothers will ever change that habit. There isn't much I would change in any of them but the word "ain't".

So much for grammar today. We had a sober weekend as my sister's husband clings to life in a Florida hospital and Ken learned he lost a dear cousin. There were three children in that family who were Ken's dad's brother's family. They were very close to Ken and his parents. Just a few months ago the son, John died, and now his older sister has gone to glory. Marcy, the youngest, remains. When she called yesterday, it seemed to me she expressed a sudden lonliness. Our prayers are with the entire family. There are four children whose mother is no longer among us. Dear God, send mercy and grace and comfort.

A Very Busy Saturday

2009-01-18T10:59:00.013-06:00

Yesterday was a very big day for me. After sitting on my sitter for the last six weeks, I have been tending to a few of the mundane things that need doing here. I am sure my husband is more than a little relieved. I will make public my appreciation for all that he has taken over. In addition to doing my work, he has been busy with insurance work as well. If he has ever proved his love for me it has been now. As all humans he came to his patient end just a couple times. Once was Friday night when I asked him to go to the grocery store for salt free tomato sauce and kidney beans. I had a yen for chili which is very unusual. I thought I could make it as salt free as possible and eat it without guilt. He came home with some cans of the requested but none of it was even close to salt free. When I commented that I wouldn't be able to use those, he kind of lost it. After putting in the effort he hadn't been successful. I was talking to my friend Joyce who also has to watch her salt intake and she told me the labels he should look for. It didn't go over very well. Joyce gathered together cans she had that would fill my bill and then dropped them off later. I still haven't made the chili but I will soon.

Ken and I cleaned the house together and it felt so freeing to get this place back to a presentable condition. My brother and his wife came from Wis about 2:30. Though they could care less whether there were dust kitties on my floor, it was therapeutic for me to have things clean. After they arrived, my dear friend from church, Rosa, drove into the yard and bore a bouquet of flowers as she walked into the house. I was delighted to introduce her to my brother and wife. My brother is on the board of an orphanage complex in Peru and spends about a month there each year. I knew he would thrill to hear Rosa's Spanish accent. I watched a grin spread across his face every now and then. Rosa would be delightful whatever language she spoke. She and the rest enjoyed a friendly cup of java and off she went to Merrillville to pick up an order.

Late in the afternoon, we drove to my other brother and wife's home who live here. They had dinner for us and then kept Jim and Sue overnight. We had an enjoyable time. I must say by seven thirty I was totally pooped.

When we walked into our kitchen on our return, there stood a stainless steel thermos bottle. I couldn't figure it. Imagine my delight to find Rosa had returned to bring me a chai tea! What a sweetie! I will sip it in small quantities but I sure did enjoy my first cup. Thanks Rosa.

The Big Birthday

2009-01-16T12:20:00.005-06:00

We braved many elements to be able to spend part of Emerson's birthday with her yesterday . As God would have it the bitter cold gave both her mommy and daddy a day off of school so all three were home.

Both Ken and I had big reservations about making the trip. They were not mutual reservations, however . You see, my husband goes early in the morning to the coffee shop in town. It is certainly not the place to get filled up with positive attitude. So when he got home, he said, "Well, if we go I think we will bypass 65 and 80/94." I asked what way would we go? Oh through Lowell and Dyer and and and. I looked at him like he was out of his mind. I asked why and he said there is ice and accidents all over the place. I know not to make a big deal of it but it just gripes me. See I was raised by a father that let not snow, ice, hail, or tornado stop him from going somewhere and that is the philosophy in my head. Then I have this man who wants to be oh so cautious. He already had asked me to listen to the travel reports and the gal I listened to and watched speak the words said, "Very cold, but travel is much better than yesterday." I relayed that to him and then he went to town. Enuf said on that score. In the end, no more was said, and we left, he took the normal interstate routes and we never saw an accident and didn't see any ice. Our way home was less than swift because we got caught in a parking lot during rush hour. Once we got on 294 the way was clear. We got off at 2 and 65 to get some cheap gas. Oh darn. It went up 25 cents since we filled up in the morning. The trucks were crawling on 2 just when I had opened my mouth to remind my less than positive driver that we had seen no accidents. Oooops, a little to early. A big semi with a open load of heavy looking product had lost the back wheels of his rig into the little ditch in front of Flying Js. They had a big truck there trying to right it but it didn't look real promising. We got our gas and got back on 65 for our final 15 minute leg home. No more had we gotten on and we saw another big semi that had rolled on its side in the median. Oh my. There were very dark tire marks on the road so my guess is the poor guy got cut off. The roads were dry. So okay, we did see two accidents..........only miles from our house.

My reservations were more of a physical nature. For whatever reason, I was UP the ENTIRE night prior. I could not rest for even five minutes. I'd lie down and was up in no time. Ken rubbed my back until he fell asleep (about five minutes) then Scarlen came to my room and sat on the bed and did for me what I have done for her many times. Comforted and rubbed my back. She was so sweet. I wish I could say anything was successful but I would be lying. Do you know how long it is from when everyone else goes to bed and light comes in the morning. By morning, I was a total wreck. I could not figure out why the Ambien did not work and I couldn't understand how my body would function after having been up over 24 hours. I didn't sleep on the way....just couldn't find it. When we first arrived, we sat in the living room where I laid on the sofa and the sun streamed in over my body. For some reason, I began to relax and fell asleep. I slept an hour and was relieved to know that my body would find rest again. We stayed about four hours and by that time, I was eager to get home.

We enjoyed watching a little girl all of one year old wearing her little birthday tiara and enjoying all the attention by her doting parents and grandparents. I've never seen a daddy so whipped. I swear he watches her every moment. The grin that spreads across his face proves the point. When we celebrated her birthday (picture above) with uncles aunts and cousins, she was unimpressed with the cake. Didn't want anything to do with it......ie...why Kendra is sucking the frosting off her finger. We tried again last night and realized the little kid is scared of cakes. I wonder if its the candle burning. I don't know but it truly was funny. She didn't even want her picture taken near the thing. Grandpa and Daddy enjoyed it even if she didn't. Kendra put a crumb of cake into Emerson's mouth and she spit it out with vigor. Maybe next year.

For Joyce, my sister, Jann, and Bernice, I have a confession to make. This morning I was cleaning off my bedside table. A white pill set next to a glass of water. I picked up that pill and matched it to those in the Ambien bottle. I know that I took a pill that night which I thought was an Ambien. Guess not. Explains a lot but not all. I still don't know why I was so jumpy though perhaps I just put my self in a state anticipating going away the next day. Kendra lovingly told me that I was mental. She is right. I'm working on it or should I say that God is working on it.

Comfort Foods

2009-01-14T10:59:00.004-06:00

As I shared on Facebook, I actually cooked my first home made food last night. It was a double batch of tapioca pudding. Ken and I both love it and it is one of our most effective comfort foods. It took awhile standing stirring the stuff but it was while I was on the phone so it made it rather a nonissue. Ken came in the kitchen and asked when we could eat it. I said the directions say it has to cool first. He went away dejected but said, 'as soon as it is cool, bring me a BIG bowl'. Well, he wasn't the only one who couldn't wait. I finally filled two big bowls, one a papa size and one a mama size and we ate it warm. It was so wonderful. I think tapioca pudding is something one has to have had in their family history in order to appreciate. My grandma made it for me and anything my grandma made for me was wonderful from potaton (Hoosier mama could probably spell that right for me). Potaton for our family was anything mixed with potatoes, be it cabbage or carrots. It must have been her touch. She also made mouse.....I need you again, Margi. That was pork of some sort cooked down and then barley, potatoes, and kale cooked together. YUM You don't know what you are missing. My dad hated it so my grandma would make big batches and bring our share over for my mother and we children. We liked it better the second day when all the flavors had melded and then sprinkled with vinegar. I still make it once in awhile for a treat for Ken and me and for our older children. They were the ones that experience my grandma and I'm sure they see the towel covered bowl in her hands as she entered the house from the next house down the street. I don't know if there was ever a person in my entire life that loved me more and proved it. There was never a doubt. I seriously don't remember a time she was angry or disappointed with me. She was awesome. I praise God for such a godly woman in my life and in the life of our kids. Kendra was two years old when she died and I can still see her stand on her tippy toes trying to see Great Gamma in the casket. My own mother died prior. I was thirty nine and had lost the two most influencial women in my life. God had other plans, he placed a friend in their place that is still my soulmate. I praise Him. God may take away but He also gives back.

Sometimes I am amazed at where I go with this thing. I sat down with no particular thing on my mind but I gave you pieces of mine, didn't I?

The snow is falling and falling....Scarlen just called to say school will be released at 12:55. I think that is a good decision. At this point, the day they have in will count and will not cost them one more make up day. Ken will go to get Isaiah and Lauri's kids will take the bus home.

Tomorrow we are supposed to go to Kendra and Craig to see Emerson on her birthday. We will see what the roads look like tomorrow. I want to see that little stinker so bad. Grandma's get goofier with age. I walked by her picture yesterday and kissed it! What is with me????? She is so super cute and sweet and lives way too far away. I know Kendra doesn't like it when I say that but I truly do feel that way. Perhaps God has a way in the future.

For those following my progress, you can respectfully dance the praise dance to the Lord for the loss of two more pounds. I am beginning to feel better. My whole body from waist down is so tender and sore. I will be glad when I can move without reminder. Please keep praying for God to restore me to fulfill the work I know He has for me to do. Two days ago, I wasn't so sure....but hope has returned and I PRAISE HIM.

BTW, some of you dear friends have sent cards, messages and called. I haven't gotten back to everyone but know that I appreciate your concern and most of all your prayers for my recovery. Yvonne, I love you and when the phone stops ringing long enough, I'll get back to you. My life is so rich with friends! Makes me weep. I love you all.

Looking Back

2009-01-13T09:45:00.003-06:00

The baby of our family, namely, Emerson Mary Chatham, will be one year old on Thursday. Her mama wants Grandpa and Grandma to be in attendance. We all celebrated the week after Christmas and that was nice since the rest of the party goers would not be able to be there on Thursday. Emerson is doing all the cute fun things one year olds do. She is into sign language presently. She knows several words or should I say "signs". Mama or Dada say a word like baby, and she folds her little arms and rocks to and fro. Her parents are having a ball watching the miracle of development. She knows my voice on the phone and gets all giddy. Yesterday, Kendra told her they would call Grandma and she got all excited until she heard a different voice on the house phone. Then she started to cry. When I called back she returned to the thrill of hearing her Grandma's voice. They are certainly little divine miracles.

Kendra shared with me that she and Craig think it is important to eat as a family. (praise the Lord). It isn't very consistent for them as Craig is a basket ball coach and is at school until late evening so they have to look ahead and plan the nights they will sit around the table and eat as a family. Don't ya just love to hear the values you taught your kids coming out a generation later? Family meal time is something that our busy lifestyles have stolen from the society we live in. I'm sure it is Satan's plan. Break down the family any way he can. Anyway, Emerson has always been a very good eater. Kendra made all her food with the goal of giving her life's best. Suddenly, the last few days, she won't eat anything Kendra is making her. When offered a jar of baby food, she will eat some of it BUT....the best food of all comes from either Mommy or Daddy's plate. Aren't kids funny. All those transitions a mother wonders if she will get through and some how or another it all works out. So feed her from your plate, what's the difference?

Sometimes as parents we have such presupposed ideas of what is right or good. Recently when Josh and Jennifer's eleven year old nephew came for a two month visit, he was having difficulty sleeping at night. Jennifer would often walk into his room and find tears streaking down his little face. She called the boy's father, her bio brother and asked what was the scoop. Well, Dad said, he has never slept alone in a room, he is used to having a family bedroom. Of course, duh, that's the Asian way. So Kip and Jennifer moved his bed into their room and the drama was over. Poor kid. I can't count on how many parents have a thing about NOT letting a child into their bed or Not having kids in their bedroom. I think we need to lighten up. Not all our ways are the best or the only. I'm sure Asian kids grow up just as self assured (or more) than US kids.

Some parents operate as an oak tree. Still, solid, strong, unbending, totally assured. They think they can't help but succeed. They are surprised when their heavily disciplined child walks away.

Some parents operate as an weeping willow tree. Soft, whispy, blown this way and that, sweeping the ground on occasion, dropping twigs and leaves all over the place and sucking every bit of moisture out of the ground, There really is little boundaries or absolutes. Kids are allowed to blow with the wind and develop their own growing up plan.

Some parents operate as Psalm 1:3He is like a tree planted by streams of water, which yields its fruit in season and whose leaf does not wither. Whatever he does prospers. Did you notice that this tree has a steady diet of water........it yields....which means it can take changes.......it produces fruit at the right time and the leaves don't wither. That produced fruit has eternal value. And the biggest parental goal around.........whatever he does prospers.

Plan B

2009-01-12T10:22:00.003-06:00

Well, it is Monday morning, the day I was supposed to have lost at least eight pounds. Twelve ounces is all the scale shows on its downward spiral. The doctor told me on Wednes day that if it didn't happen he had other tricks up his sleeve. Dear God, I hope those are answers and not tricks. I called and spoke with his nurse this morning. She was surprised success was not had. She told me she would report to the doctor and they would call back. I expected to wait all day as I sat with the phone in my hand carrying it from place to place. She already checked with the doctor and he is starting plan B. He prescribed a different type of diuretic to jump start the one my body isn't paying much attention to any longer. This I will take for five days. All my faithful prayer warriors who read this blog are called to pray for this new drug to break down the resistance to freeing me from the fluid stuck in my body. Lord God, show me new mercies today.

I watched President Bush's exit press conference this morning. I saw a man that believes with all he is that he made decisions based on the good of the America people. I also saw a man that has aged many years over the last four. He looked tired and ready to exit the territory. I look forward for Laura and George to be able to share that morning cup of coffee together a week from Wednesday in Crawford. Bush is right when he says that Obama has yet to feel the burden of the office. As I've said before, one can promise the world when he/she hasn't sat in on those daily national sercurity meetings. My prayer is that God will guide Obama to fulfill His will for America. Show America your mercies too Lord. And lest we forget....thank you for all the blessings we have received over the many years of our freedom. You are the only true God.

His Mercies are New Every Morning

2009-01-11T08:25:00.002-06:00

It is a new morning and you know what that means? It means this..........
Lamentations 3:
22Because of the LORD's great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail.
23 They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness.
24 I say to myself, The LORD is my portion; therefore I will wait for him

What a wonderful promise that is. What new compassion do you have for me today, Lord? I will be searching for it. I praise you that your faithfulness is great.

One of my favorite things to do in life is to ride in a car. It doesn't really matter if I'm the driver or the passenger. The only difference is that when I'm the passenger I get the best sleep ever. I haven't been able to sleep in the car recently but I look forward to the day that relaxation returns. Yesterday I spent all afternoon at our daughter, Lauri's house. I was witness to a scene that brought me back many years. Lauir's kids are now at ages they can be a big help in cleaning the house. So lists were made (the way her mother did it) and each child was on encouraged to accomplish the things on his/her lists. By the time the jobs were really complete, one child had to do the vacuuming three times. She wasn't pleased either. Her claim was that she had vacuumed. I told Lauri that she probably had but she needs to learn to SEE dirt. I know that many people don't SEE dirt. How blest are they! Needless to say, Mom was discouraged with her little helpers. It takes some time for most kids to realize that doing a good job the first time is the least painful for everyone involved. I tried to be an on looker and not say word one. I know this little child did not need two mothers. The children's father, soft as a marshmallow, said to his wife, "how are we going to raise the cleaning bar of our children?" Then he looked at me and asked if I had any ideas. I smiled and said, Oh I don't know, I probably tortured them. He laughed.

So when we left Lauri and Elton we took a ride south toward Rensselaer. It felt so good to be in the car and just ride. We stopped for a Dairy Queen cone on our way back. When I got home I ejected it from my body so I don't know what that was all about. Rather disappointing.

I couldn't wait to get to sleep last night. Sleep is the ultimate escape. I had a twelve hour escape last night. Wonderful. Ken and Isaiah are at the early service. I'm trying to get my day started. I'll be looking for those new mercies today. Enjoy the ones he gives you.

Rod Blagojevich ...

2009-01-09T12:39:00.006-06:00

Well, our neighbor state's governor is now impeached. I used to think that was ousted but nothing is further from the truth. It is the beginning step of attempting to remove Blagojevich from office against his will. If I now understand it correctly, it is a vote taken by the legislative body that says, "Yes, there is something to be looked at here. He is up for some questioning." So a trial will take place in the legislature. As in all political processes, there are steps that are taken so that everything is thought out and not done in haste. In Rod's case, I say the man is either made of steel or he is the biggest liar around. I think what's happening in the Burris case is interesting as well. At first, Reps and Dems alike were quick to denounce his appointment. No way would he serve. I have listened to the talk get less negative. Barrack seems to be soft peddling that one and so those around him will fall in line behind him like a brood of baby ducks. Politics is an arena where anything can be expected and if you don't like how the wind is blowing today.....just wait a day or two and you may be happier. I know we need Christians in that field but I'm not sure how a Christian could survive it. It would be divine help for sure. In my own heart and mind I find a bit of sorrow over those that we place into office with faith in their integrity, only to be fooled one more time. I'm not quite sure why we listen to all their campaign promises. They could be termed campaign bologny. Power and privilege can be obstacles to good intention.

What's New?

2009-01-08T16:36:00.003-06:00

So, what's new? I've been out of the loop so long I have no idea what is going on around my world. I have had no desire to be out and about. Home is so safe, isn't it? I have watched other people go through this sort of thing and would be clueless as to why they were so attached to their own four walls. I guess one has to walk the walk before understanding comes. Believe me, it is not my biggest aspiration. I look forward to returning to the land of the living. My poor husband has been so patient. One of the things that drew me to Ken when we were nineteen and twenty was the way he would greet me. His face was always lit up like a Christmas tree. That smile has still not worn out. Each time he comes in the door, the first thing he does is call out, Hello. That helps him figure out where I am. Then he searches me out and greets me with that same warm, everything is going to be alright smile. Those times I have been super sad, I found him hovering. I would hear him coming down the hall just to check on me. Again, the big smile would flash before me. I thank God for him. He truly has been my confidant, my encourager, my delight. For years and years I prided (yes prided) myself in the fact that I was a much more serious person than he was. He seemed to always have fun no matter what the circumstances. God has shown me a thing or two. Ken had it right all the time. I spent my time reasoning in my own strength and getting nowhere good. So even though I don't know what is going on around me I am learning what is going on in me. It's taken some humility but the truth is worth it.

The Kidney Specialist

2009-01-07T17:58:00.003-06:00

Today was a stressful day for me as most of you are aware of. Fortunately, I had my faithful husband and one of my devoted daughters with me as I went to the kidney specialist. Ken had occasion to use this doctor a year or so ago when he messed up his kidneys by taking too much Ibuprofen. To tell you the truth I never knew the doctor's name. I confessed on the way home that I definitely have tendencies toward racism. Last names tell me a lot about a person or at least I'm convinced of that. This man's last name screamed Persian of some sort. I rather balked at that but Ken told me he was a very nice man and I would like him.

We were genuinely welcomed by the staff as we arrived. Not the normal type of doctor's office. The receptionist was sweet as sugar. The nurse had a smile in her eyes that was comforting. She took all my information and said I would be just fine. I wasn't so sure I would believe that. Then the doctor came in. He had a very easy way about him. As he looked over my records, he reminded me that this was not a new problem. For the last eight years I have experienced heart failure. I knew that but for many years I tried to deny it. Diuretics are my lifeline but when the kidneys have had enough they start to scream. Hence the cardiologists decision to send me to this guy. He checked my body over and said it was obvious I was carrying quite a bit of water retention. He felt there was a bit of water in one of my lungs. His decision is to double up on my diuretic for five days in hopes that amount of time will be enough to take this fluid off. Then we will see. He said my condition is one of trying to balance enough fluid but not too much. This will be something I will have to watch from day to day. He did not seem overly concerned. He said if I didn't lose eight pounds by Monday, I should call him because he has other tricks up his sleeve. He said he expected I would feel much better in a few days. That was good news.

Soooooo. Please pray my body will expel the fluid it needs to get rid of. Pray also that my body will find a comfortable balance. Thank God for seeing me through this day that I have been so fearful of.

The Struggle to Stay Positive

2009-01-04T13:18:00.013-06:00

It is the fourth of the month already. The last I wrote was New Year's Day. Just haven't been in the mood. As I read the last couple of entries, I want to hang my head/they are pretty depressing. While my circumstances are not changed a whole lot, I wish to be more positive today. At times like this it strikes me that writing a blog is like hanging one's dirty laundry for all to see. If I didn't believe with all my heart that Jesus is my refuge and fortress, I'd give this up in a minute. If there is anything I have learned in my sixty plus years is that everyone goes through things that are difficult. In the church of my childhood, it was proper to keep all ones troubles secret. We were to appear pure and holy. What a facade. We would not wish to appear as though we were nonspiritual. I so praise God that I am a member of the body of Christ at a church that recognizes that life is a spiritual battle and that we find our victory in Jesus and when we struggle, people, fellow believers, (Jesus with skin on) come along with us and encourage us with their hugs and prayers and when victory is finally won, celebrate God's faithfulness with us by praising God.

It is difficult to be positive today. Some time ago I wrote about a wonderful lady from our church that died of a heart attack. Her husband found her on the sofa and thought she was sleeping. To say this couple loved each other is an understatement. Most of their family lived miles away so they were a grandpa and grandma to several children in our church including our pastor's children. Yesterday we got a terrible phone call. The husband had gone in the back yard and shot himself. We were bowled over. Jim? Why would he do that? He seemed to be in grief but handling it fairly well. Our church family has been robbed by Satan one more time. We have experienced male suicide three times in four years. Unheard of in a church, correct? I can't conjecture any motive or reason other than that the holidays made his wife's absence more than he could handle. I wish I could hug him one last time and tell him how important his presence is to us at Community. He was a surrogate grandfather to the children of one of the men who took his life a couple of years ago. Tell me, how those kids are going to recover. Yes, we at Community have been dealt another heavy blow. God teach us what we are to learn through this latest trial.

Happy New Year

2009-01-01T11:12:00.015-06:00

The more appropriate greeting would be that I pray you have a blessed new year. I pray that prayer for our family as well. I do not think the economic turn down has done us a disfavor. Aren't we all appreciating God's blessings a little more instead of always looking for more? I know that some of you have businesses suffering and have lost jobs or securities. My heart goes out to you. From past experience I urge you to hang on to God's promises. Remember the Reagan years? To my dad and many others he was a great leader. To Ken and me, some of his programs were partly responsible for the loss of our business. There were many other factors. Ugliness trickles down. But since that day, I have looked at money in a totally different way. I learned first hand that one can have money one day and be penniless the next. One can appear to be a successful person one day and a fool the next. A seventy year old man recently confessed to his children that he has lost a third of his holdings in the last six months. It isn't uncommon for us to blame ourselves.

My son, John and I were discussing those difficult times on the phone the other day. He reminded me that through all that ugliness, we were never without food or shelter. My pride was seriously bruised. I wanted to run....move far away and start over. My husband saw it differently. H e felt it was an opportunity to stay put and prove our integrity to our community. He was right, of course.

I learned not to point fingers. We as observers never know all the factors involved in another's misfortune. Hopefully, we all will have learned a few lessons from the hardships some of us are experiencing. So to any that find facing the future with less security, be reminded that you don't know the future but you know Who holds the future.

Bad Memories

2008-12-31T11:48:00.002-06:00

Our daughter Sherri called yesterday and demanded I call the cardiologist and see if he got a report from the kidney test I had. It was four in the afternoon and she said with vigor, "Mom, you need to call that office right now, I'm hanging up and you are calling." So, chicken that I am, asked Ken to call for the report. The report was received with joy as it showed my kidneys to be of normal size and general normalcy. That was a huge relief. Now, I'm left with the original problem of not being able to take the amount of diuretic that my body is used to. My appointment is at least a week away. I'm very tired of feeling bloated (and looking bloated). My husband assures me they will get it figured out. I'm hanging on to the healing promises the Lord gives me in His Word. I've been around this mountain many times and still find myself freaking out with fear and worry. I'm really sorry that those feelings come out; I feel so weak .......yesterday, I tried to figure out the source and origin of that fear. The only thing I can think of was what I experienced when I was five years old. My dad had a cerebral hemorrhage in my parent's bedroom one night. I recall my mother giving him a clothes pin to chew on so that he wouldn't swallow his tongue. I remember seeing blood coming from either his nose or mouth. We didn't have a phone at that time so my mother, feeling helpless, stood at the back door of our house yelling the neighbor's name. The neighbor lived at least the distance of a block away. The neighbor didn't hear her pleas for help but a man named Ed De Vries :) had met a car driven by a neighbor of his and they were parked in the middle of the gravel road chatting. People did that a lot when I was a kid, they didn't have the hurry we have today. They heard my mom's plea and Ed and his wife came over. Ed went to get word to the ambulance driver to come and then went to my dad's family home to alert his parents. Soon my mother's parents (who lived in the next house on the west side of our house) turned up as well. The ambulance came and took my daddy away. He had come home about a year and a half before from World War II. We weren't ready to have him gone again. I remember the quiet somber mood in the living room with my four grandparents. It was such a frightening time for me as well as for everyone else. I recall my mother telling someone within my earshot that a nurse had talked my dad through the night telling him to fight for life. My parents were acquainted with a couple a bit older than they whose seventeen year old daughter was also in the hospital. I walked into her room with my mom and the father was sitting in the corner of the room with a five year old daughter and a four year old daughter each on one of his knees. That five year old girl eventually became my bosom buddy at De Motte Christian School. She is one of my favorite people to this day. The outcome for their family was different than ours. My dad recovered, but Alisha died. Another horrid memory for this little girl called Gayle. My dad came home from the hospital in the same ambulance that took him. He was terribly weak and couldn't stand on his own. The ambulance parked at our front door (which was without stairs at that point). I recall with pure fondness my Grandpa saying to his son as he helped get his gurney through the door, "Put your arms around my neck, Jimmy, and hang on." It makes me weep all over again. Those were such tender words from the father to the son. It was the only time I recall hearing either of my dad's parents call him Jimmy. He was always Jim, which was a much better name for a man that at most times in his life was strong and self sufficient. Once home, my dad's job was to get stronger. The doctor told my mother to feed him an eggnog a day. Those were the days we whisked a raw egg, put in a cup of milk, a couple of tablespoons of sugar and a teaspoon of vanilla. Today we are warned not to eat fresh raw eggs. I do recall enjoying those eggnogs so much...they were delicious. Evidently they were nutritous as well. My dad recovered and is now 88 years old.

So that was what came to me when I explored why illness makes me so uneasy. I don't know if it has any bearing on my discomfort but that is the first time I remember experiencing those feelings of fear and dread. Lord Jesus, I invite you to go to that place in my memory bank and touch them with your healing.

The Party Continued Today

2008-12-29T17:35:00.003-06:00

Yesterday after I posted I thought to myself, "did I write Christmas 2009 on that blog? It is only 2008." So I just checked and yes I had made that error. I guess I'm rushing the years and I certainly don't wish to do that.

Joshua and Susan's family and Kendra and Craig all stayed the night at Lauri's so the day after the party, we continued to party down. I think everyone was on their trip home by about two o'clock and I was spent. We so enjoyed our two days with the six of our kids that could attend. It is just wonderful to visit with adults who happen to have the same values you do. It always amazes me how it comes out somehow that the things we attempted to teach them, they really did grasp. I guess that is good news for those of you who have budding adults still under your roof. Makes one oh so grateful and just a little bit proud. Not a pride that is evil but one that gives one the feeling of fulfillment. The kind of thing that one can look at and say with conviction, God is faithful. He gets all the praise.

Adopting older children has been one of our experiences in life. Today, we sat around the kitchen table and talked real feelings about how it was when Joshua and Jennifer joined our family. We were under the impression these kids were coming from an orphanage just as our first adoption had been. When we got them we were told the mother had brought them to the orphanage the night before they flew out. They had not been prepared emotionally at all. They were sort of tricked into this flight by the promise of things that were not totally true. None of their four older brothers knew what their mother was doing. Obviously, the adjustment was totally huge. Today I got the chance to tell Joshua how we felt. I expressed that I was truly angry with this mother that I did not know who sent her 12 and 8 year old to us in America to a strange culture and family. I told him that I had a tough time figuring God's will out at that time. I still don't get it, but we were true to our committment to love them and rear them in the ways of the Lord. And love them we do....dearly.....and they us. So for whatever reason, God had a plan.

All this came up because one of the older brothers sent his eleven year old son to Chicago the middle of December. It is his winter break (two months). The poor little kid is struggling with homesickness. Jennifer told me she just didn't understand his tears. I looked at her like she was from out of space. When I asked if she didn't remember all the nights I sat by her bedside, holding her, comforting her and crying with her, she responded that she has no recollection of that memory. Isn't it a grace of God that that pain she felt was lifted out of her memory bank?

Jun Soeng came to our family celebration yesterday. He is a delightful boy, very cute and very social. At one point, I turned around to see that he had gone over to our little 11 month old Emerson and picked her up and sat down on the sofa to love over her. It was just precious. He also got along with all the big kids by whooping them in video games and just having plain fun.

It is just amazing to me that God would bring all of this family connection full circle. The mother I had no love for years ago has been a guest in our home. She loves the Lord and I have to believe that she has grown in the thirty years we have had the kids. Now we have one of her grandchildren at our family gathering and everybody was doing their utmost to make him feel accepted and loved. It doesn't take much for me to look at a Korean face and adore it but it thrilled me to see all our grandchildren hovering around this person that arrived as stranger and left as friend.

Today was going to be the day we were going to get results from my tests. Nada. We can't get into the specialist until January 7th. Not exactly sure what steps we will take next but I have to believe that God is going before me and has everything in His control. Just a bit confused.